"Christmas for You"

Here we are again
As December 25th approaches.
Another year has come and gone
Hopefully filled to the brim with the kinder things in life;
But then, the world would not be the same without a balance of ups and downs.
Change is always upon us,
So let the stress of the past year fall from you
Like tiny snowflakes drifting.
Let the release soothe you.
May the holiday season lift you up,
Sparking a celebration that will last well into the New Year.
Remembering tenderly those who have gone before us,
Let peace flow through
Because where there is a spark there is will
Where there is a flame there is hope
And a fire growing to start anew.
So take a moment and do something for yourself.
In the bustle of life, extend a helping hand to those who are reaching.
Live a rich and full life.
Do your absolute best to exist,
Live in every vibrant moment,
And live Christmas for you, the way you see fit.
Wishing you happy times, good health and peace of mind
With family and friends
Wishing you a very Merry Christmas!



© 2012

"Not Broken"

The words that soak into our ears are whispered, not yelled

So I will speak quietly and tenderly to you

Every minute matters in this world where you reside

I can only try to hold you

You are the one who has to let me embrace you
Though your heart is in tatters

And your pride nurses its wound

Let the darkness take flight and hide nowhere withing you

Making all illusions scatter
Before this incoming tide of tears drown your ability to love
Complicated is a luxury you cannot afford to have

Move beyond these impossible moments

In the root of that effort is how you will survive

And I will continue to remind you always

That some things in life can be broken beyond repair

But you are not one of them.

© 2012

"Is It In You?"

Does this darkness have a name?

Why does this cruelty and hatred that exists in our world seem to take up such an important place?

This darkness is cold, empty, and completely unforgiving

Does it simply steal into our lives or do we actively seek it out and embrace it?

This kind of being does not naturally exist within us

This way of being is taught to us ever since the tender age of innocence

What happened to us?

What has happened to us?

That we now send ourselves-our children-out into this world like we send so many young men and woman to war

This darkness looms over us...

Waiting and praying to find a weak point on our surface or in our lives so it can seep its way in

Its always there, hiding in plain sight?

Nobody tries to understand anymore

Hate has almost become a value that everyone holds so dear to everything that they love

With hope and faith failing...

We have come to realize that some of our loved ones won't have a safe return home

We willingly know that so many will be lost along the way...

When did we become so lost?

When did we lose our way?

We have become consumed by the lurking shadows

We have been swallowed whole by the darkness

This darkness continues to breed in the stale air around us

With each act that is taken against humanity by another human being

We are forced further down into submission and to the most unfortunate irrevocable end

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it in you?

Is it your name?

© 2012

"Love Lied"

In this moment I desperately wish for tomorrow

So I will have yet another day further away from all that was you and I

One more day at an attempt to mend my broken heart

Because bitterness does not even begin to describe the loss of faith in your actions

The failure of hope in you and your choices lacked any sort of compassion when destroying my heart

Memories now fail to recall

Any single point in time when all things changed between us

Until now

Ripped out by the roots

We had grown....

Or so I thought...

That strength would have been found in numbers

And a connection was made

But now, devastation is found only in one

After my emotions were dismissed by the simple wisp of your hand

All that once was has come crashing down

Passion runs cold

Tenderness turns to stone

My voice no longer wants to call your name

Because my mind can't seem to stop thinking

What was the lie?

You?

Or our love?

© 2012

"Poetry Through A Readers Eye"

Upon the page

Ink flows like a river

Telling readers a little story

Giving them a glimpse into a different landscape, feeling, or emotion

Words of expression fill every line

They flow beyond an unmeasurable depth

Or soar above the highest cloud

Every thought is defined

Some sing to you sweetly

Others strike your heart strings like keys upon a piano

Questions of love and life are asked or even answered

Joy and peace sometimes can be found within the same body

Because pain, anger, and strife are all written

Experience ingrained into the paper, directly from life

Diversity found

Thoughts lost

Sometimes in between the lines hidden messages can be found

Like a story it may have a theme

Each one with unique characters and scene

Conflicts are played out or worked out

Like a film written and shown within your mind

Life through words

As powerful as they can be

Used with strength and a sense of compassion

You truly never know what you may feel or see

So take a moment or two

Let your eyes fall over the next poem your feet come upon

Because you may come to realize that its more than just some words printed upon the page

Maybe you will realize that sometimes we are not meant to fit into tiny little labeled boxes

Maybe the true fact is, that we need to simply build a bigger box to exist within

Or maybe, we don't even need to be defined or held within a perfectly labeled box at all.

© 2012

"Our Time Now"

These are the days that are never ending

These are the moments in between

We are here...

Standing in the now

Waiting for the chance

The possibility...

To live...

To be able to grow beyond our former selves

To reach high, beyond the stars

Its our turn to shine and bask in the glory

To receive what is rightly ours to own

To stand in a place of unity, equality, and freedom

These are the days of things that have long since passed

These are our days of wholeness and of completeness

These are our days to just be...

Free.

© 2012

"Peaceful Dreamer"

Close your eyes my sweet dear

Drift off to that special place in the sky

Dream in every beautiful colour

Embrace the rich vibrant spectrum

Be part of that magical rainbow beaming down form the heavens

Be at peace here...

Sweet and gentle peace...

Don't leave your dreams lonely

Is it happiness that you seek?

Hold on tight as you drift softly through this starry night

Treasure laughter for the rest of your life

Because tears and sadness don't belong here

This is a place where the possibilities stretch out from beyond the horizon

Linger and hesitate no longer

Here, you can be truly free

For this is your chance to change the world

So, sweet dreams my love...

My eternal friend...

A guardian angel watches over you now, forever, and always

Until dawn breaks and the sunrise seeks you.

© 2012

"Not A Love Poem"

The words that follow in the lines to come do not belong to any part of a love poem

The words written down are the ones that are in the shapes of needles

The ones that poke holes in my heart
Causing it to bleed faster than words can be spoken
No use worrying yourself over spilled blood

Especially when there is no more caring held within your heart

Blood drops splatter onto the hungry ground
They evaporate into thin air just like the love that was once contained in your heart
Like I said, this is not a love poem...

Instead of sweet melodies of our love song

Raw fury erupts through me
Everything within me wants to throw numerous verbal grenades

Even though I already know they will fall upon deaf ears
Have I mentioned yet that this is not a love poem...
Love has lost its worth

Pictures taken of happier times only show what use to be
I surrender myself to the realization

That you cut me out of your life without showing a single ounce of emotion
This is why this is not a love poem

And every love poem I did write will wither

Because they are written to a person I no longer know

My words flow faster than anger can peak...

They will not sit idly by tingling in my finger tips
They yearn to be free, expressed, and documented

Scribbled out in bright red ink and mounted upon your wall

Reminding you every single moment of every day that this is not a love poem

This is my heart screaming at you at the top of its lungs

I am here...

Standing alone, wounded, and exposed
This is why this is not a love poem...

If you even dare to read it

But I know you won't...

Because the coward within you has already told you to run

Leaving abandonment in your wake

With multiple questions left unanswered

It forces me to write this...
That this is not a love poem.

© 2012

"No More Chances"

Moments linger well after there is no more you and I

Making me realize the true problem with shadows

That they will always follow you wherever you go

Even standing here

In the middle of the pouring rain

I realize that there is not enough rain contained within the clouds to wash away the stain left behind by you

So when it comes down to any form of apology

The answer is no

You cannot erase the harm that you have done

Actions have been taken

Words have been spoken

That which is out there is already done

And it remembers all to well what its like to feel your so called love

So please respect my wishes

Second chances are given, not asked for

And the debt you now owe is way too much for me to lend you anymore credit

So feel free to wait

But I will not call or write

Because I will no longer chase after you anymore

It was your choice to walk out on me

And I am here....

Holding open the door.

© 2012

"Time Begins"

Bathed in the memories

With the recent past barely in full sight of my rear view mirror

I move on...

At first it was merely the seconds ticking by

Then the moments

Now, days pass by with better ease

My mind is not so easily distracted now by the partial remains left behind

With such a clean break...

A much as heartbreak and being abandon allow...

There is unfortunately not much to gather up

Words cease

Feelings slow

Emotions stop growing

Time begins to do what it always seems to do

Gently erases the strength and power it has over me

And helps ease the passing

It files all former love and passion away

Placed neatly in a box of things that use-to-be

Rested upon a shelf

In some long lost distant corridor of the mind.

© 2012

"Shadows..."

Today I have begun to see shadows where ever I go

Its everything that is you lingering around

Playing tricks with my senses

Multiple tender moments have yet to fade

My heart has only just begun to beat the same again

There are days that I catch myself falling back through memories

My voice is tempted to call out to you

But deep down I know

I will never breath your love again

Saddled with this new truth

Its a hard realization to bare

I cry silently through the passing

So where does time go between hello and goodbye?

What is the next step beyond moving on?

Because right now in this very moment

One day at a time seems like a very big step

When you are starting from a new beginning.

© 2012

"Suddenly Broken"

How quickly does happiness turn?

Moments like this fade along with smiles...

Tears stand on guard

Ready at any second to march down my face

Memories fail...

Its so easy to recall the recent past

Everything twists together now

Binding my heart

Labored breath holds me

I wish to scream aloud

But I hold in my broken voice

Like all things before me

I let the feelings slide away from me

As I begin the difficult task of pushing forward

Because like many things in life...

This... Your choice to break me....

Has happened all of a sudden...

© 2012

"Frozen Footsteps"

Waiting upon the edge

Here in a moment frozen

Holding still

Where time stops

Silence screams

Seconds tick by slowly, almost in reverse

Eternity comes and goes

Tears are afraid to fall

But linger none the less

Hiding close by

Just in case they are needed

Nerves fray

Every heartbeat is intimately known

Because every feeling, emotion, and movement here after is raw

Cut deep to the core

Changing everything that now lies before every footstep forward.

© 2012

"In Love"

Tenderly sweet and smooth

And nothing between us but our skin

Moments link to memories

My heartbeat matches yours

Fingertips leave fingerprints in soft places touched

The smell of warmth melts me smooth

And the taste of your kiss lingers upon my lips

Time slows and speeds by all in the same second

Hours unfold

Weaving a tapestry of a new history made

Word for word

Line by line

And page after page

Anchored by a fond growing connection

I finally allow myself to slip completely

And whole heartedly...

In love with you.

© 2012

"Here Beside Me"

Intense warmth radiates from your tender skin

As my fingertips glide across your bare chest

Fingers entwine...

Arms link and embrace

The sound of your beating heart soothes me

You snuggle your chin deep at the base of my neck

Intense shivers excite every nerve upon my spin

I smile bright...

My breath matches yours

In this position I am safe

Its a place that I have longed to be for most of my life

All because I have you

Here beside me.

© 2012

"Every Part Unique"

No

I will not be sorry for this day

Nor will I be sorry for any day before or after this moment

I do not regret the choices that I have made for me

I am simply trying my best to live my life

My actions are my own

I owe no debt

So please, stop trying to create one for me

Time can be the best illusion

One blink and it all can be gone

If you forever hold out

Then a lifetime will be spent waiting

I bear my own making

My faults and mistakes are my imperfections

Which I own

Making me every part unique.

© 2012

"Memory Everlasting"

Its crazy just how much stock we can put into a feeling

The weight of emotions...

And the times passed...

Awaiting with baited breath of eagerness

Hope can always be rekindled

From the tiniest spark

Or even from nothing in the dark

We are that example of a fresh new chance taken

You and I

Here...

Just as we are

Learning the curves of each others lives

We mark out our beginning

Growing together with hands and fingers entwined

With all of the stars I gaze upon

And the numerous moments counted that have passed

Add together until my mind loses track

Because we are building up memories upon the thousands each and every day

And a day in the life of a memory can be everlasting.

© 2012

"Simply So"

I seem to struggle with the simple words of gratitude

Because to me, in this very moment

Thank you does not seem to be enough

Slowly you have begun to open the doors of your life and allow me in

Hand in hand we lead one another along

I have become very fond of having you in my life

You have become a source of deep and rich happiness

As we begin this adventure with one another upon the paths of our lives

I smile deep within my being at the knowing that I have become a source of happiness for you too

Making my senses crave more of everything that is us together

So at the end of the day when all words are spoken

I am simply left once again with thank you

For the chance taken...

With your faith and choice in me

Fingers entwine

And smiles shine ever so bright.

© 2012

"Shine Bright"

Hand in hand a new

A connection is made

Feelings begin free and easy

A simple flow of movements

Friendship grows

And eagerness pursues

You inspire me...

Eyes of sparkle blue

And a smile that shines light

Making the sun so envious, because it cannot shine that bright.

© 2012

"Everyday Smile"

Who knew that a smile could do so much

Like a bright shinning light awakening the most deepest darkness

Something honest

Its simple and true

It can carry so many meanings, words, or reasons

It can happen any place or anytime

Through laughter, sorrow, and even through pain

Or for no other reason than that its the only thing left one can do

A smile can be contagious

And it can liven up someones day beyond any explanation

So be the bearer of a simple kindness

And shine a light into someones life

Because you truly never know what it could bring to another

It can even make someone else smile even more.

© 2012

"Life Is Life"

From time to time

As we always do

When you take a moment and look into yourself

Past the wish and prayer

Deep at the connection of your being

Simply continue to be

Just as you are

Here in this very moment

Continue to strive towards the vision you see

Shrug off any vision of what others see you being

Live enough to let your dreams grow

Challenge and change the world around you

While always remembering that leaps of faith require you to jump...

Simply love without the label...

And continue to give absolutely everything you can to life

As you exist in every vibrant moment

Because life is life...

Welcome.

© 2012

"Life In Ounces"

The more that you lose

The closer you come to the edge of extinction

With your last known conviction

You claim full possession of me

Grasping desperately at anything to simply drown out the pain

Everything around you is crumbling

The drastic erosion caused by your new favourite drink is far reaching

It sweeps out the barriers, the very foundation of your existence

From living a life that was fine

Your now worse than any wreck

The shelves of your life have been emptied

The contents of your mind has been scattered beyond recognition

Your heart barely holds on in the hazy rain of tears

In a blink of an eye years seem to pass in single moments

Memories have begun to fade

Your soul continues to be stripped clean of its identity as you kill yet another bottle

Draining it completely of every ounce of spirit has held within it

The once fresh and crisp air of your being holds nothing but screaming chaos

Dazed and confused...

Bitter and jaded...

Drowning and drifting away...

Your senses have gone numb

A steady ache rushes over you in slow motion waves

Pulling you under...

You struggle to cover up your sobs on the inside

While you mask your multiple illusions on the outside

Sharp pains jolt through your soul like points of a million pins

The contents of your life has become dangerously thin

Is it night?

Or is it day?

The time has come for you to say goodbye to the world that you use to know

Your life-the connection to this world-has begun to slip steadily away

Who is this empty hollowed out shell?

The sudden sickening panic plagues you

The horror...

The irreversible realization hits you

All the things that have been stolen

All of the things that you have taken in vain

Your linger here for merely moments

Only a few ounces remain

As you grab me by the neck with your final breath

You curse my evil name

For I am the drink that has been drinking you and draining you beyond dry

Struggle no longer in your bubbly strife

For I am the one that has claimed you, and cost you your life.

© 2012

"Every Ounce of Fight"

How dare you cast shadows upon her

Making fear rain down around her now crumbling life

The amount of second guessing almost out numbers her tears

A sweet and tender soul is filled with endless doubt

Most rational thoughts are forgotten

She is treading water in the place she has been now anchored to

Her strength drains rapidly

Every ounce of fault weighs down

Fighting to keep her head above water

She is reminded by those who love her

That she should not let anothers regrets become her mistakes too

She is better than this

And she deserves more than this

Than the partial paltry sublime after effects of a great love broken

So fight against every moment

And every memory...

Gain one foot up upon everything that has fallen at your feet

Pull yourself out of the deep darkness

And back upon the path that you are still creating

Be the leader that you are searching for

Because sometimes the scares that we bare are only there to serve as reminders as to just how strong we are

Because we all must remember

While following our hearts we must do our best not to fall apart along the way

So give everything that you can give to life

But never forget to live.

© 2012

"Dawn Is Breaking"

Time seeps through silence

As mornings gentle glory begins its steady rise

A broad curtain of pale gray fog covers the countryside

Ethereal and thick it obscures the daylight

A sweet perfume of pine, cut grass, and a soft rain pervades the air

A calm stillness is everywhere

Tall tree's, like dim dark statues stand rigid in the shadows

A strange beauty lies upon the land

A thousand birds make their song

The sun smiles down with a face of gleaming gold

And draws the curtain upon the world for our eyes to witness the wonder

Colour spreads through the darkness

Leaving us a scene before us to behold

Listen to the rich growth of the earth

Everything is alive and breathing

Dawn is breaking.

© 2012

"Expression"

Words spoken, provoked thoughts

Volumes after volumes

Chapter after chapter

In each phase of our lives we find a common thread

It binds us together in moments of poetry, philosophy, literature, and wisdom

We abdicate our youth

But not our power of imagination

We talk like long time friends

A tapestry of conversation is sewn together over the hours

Collectively we all join in

Feeding off of one each others creativity, uniqueness, and knowledge

Self expression is everywhere

A lyric in a song

A rhyme in a poem

Talk of today...tomorrow...and yesterday

Experiences shared with a touch of innocence

Openness. Honesty. Defying the norm

We defray societies expenses

Irrational thoughts and absolute truth

We are not the ones who sell our souls

It is a cost that we are not willing to pay

Nothing but the truth

Convictions. Religion. God?

Where do we fit in?

Rhymes. Reasons. Life

Where to begin?

We annihilate seeds of hate

We bring an end to perpetuating stereotypes

We stand up and claim our independence

Boundaries crossed

We expand that invisible line

We look to ourselves

We are more alike than we are different

Sex. Love. Orientation

Choices made to strengthen yourself

We abhor those with shallow views and narrow mindedness

Finally we find people with the same ideals

Open. Honest. Unashamed

We are glad to share stories

We open the book to our lives

We read a line or two addressing the truth

Words of sophistication diminish unpractical theories with banter

We play on the edge, emulating the great thinkers of this world

We look into ourselves and then out to the world

Friendship in a moment...maybe years

Imagination. Expression. Self-identification

Be who you are and set your true self free

Show the world your knowledge

Remember past mistakes

Remember all of the history

Feed your mind and senses everyday

Emotional high. Ambivalent to religion

Suffused with convictions

Open your imagination

Open yourself to experience and express yourself in any and every way that you can

Don't simply live your life

Do your best to exist!

© 2012

"Equation"

Odd or even?

Which one are you?

No one can be both...

So you have to choose

Its a struggle because everything in life is a choice

Everyone so easily assumes

Everyone always chooses even, when they very well know that they are odd

There is so much desire to be even

Even has a sameness, an essence of some sort of perfection attached to it

If only it embodied all of the equality that the world needs

We all very well know that we are odd

That's what makes us do different and unique from one another

But why does this terrify us so?

Why does it bring us such fear?

Odd numbers like 13 are seen as bad luck

But odd it not just another number and its no where near perfection

So why do we struggle?

We force ourselves into a category where we don't belong

Why can't people understand?

Perfection is so over rated

But sadly...its what drives us

Its our determination to project our image and vision of our ourselves onto the world

Seldom do we realize that such a need for something completely unattainable is absolutely self-destructive

So that's why, as time moves on, we get further ahead in the world while others are left behind, struggling

What is right or wrong for you?

In the end it comes down to what is right, not easy...

Odd or even?

I know that I'm odd, but what about you?

That's why life's equation never seems to work out or make any sense

That's why-more times than enough-everyone gets added up wrong

Odd or even?

It simply doesn't add up right...

© 2012

"More Than Nothing"

Without a single word, I can sense your distress

Your face is as pale as the life that you are now living

Your heart is like oil upon water

Separated from the rest of your body

You feel the sharp stab of realization that comes with every labored breath

You swim through a pool of thoughts of words once spoken

Because each broken something leaves a whole that needs to be filled with yet another something

And behind the facade that you are trying to hold onto

You are pleading for mercy

Tears are streaming from your eyes

You must try to let the light shine in to banish the haunting shadows of your past

Because you are way more than just this single moment

You are stronger than your tears

Greater than your limits

And you are more than just another person forgotten.

© 2012

"A Smile Speaks"

My vision is reduced to faint light, dark shades, and angles in space

Against the bright light of your foreground

I study the shadows of you

Looking into space at nothing

You look a little haunted

And excitingly mysterious

Our eyes cross with a hint of intrigue

Mine fill with all the knowing that you have suddenly made the edges of my melt smooth

And yours dart away timidly

But return with an intensely welcoming stare

In that instant

Feelings fan up from my fingertips as if an ice cold glass of water has just been thrown upon my hand

And spreading at lightening speed throughout my entire body

Here in these delectable moments there is a sign

A signal in the knowing and a genuine interest that your face and body cannot hide

My jugular vain pulses

You are flushed with heat

Your cheeks turn a shade of rosy red

I smile...

You curl your lips into a deliciously sinful smile

And give me a knowledgeable nod in kind

And you leave me only to wonder

That the truth is in the telling

But the secret is in the knowing.

© 2012

"Is it in you?"

Darkness...

Does this darkness have a name?

Why does this cruelty and hatred that exists in our world seem to take up such an important place?

This darkness is cold, empty, and completely unforgiving

Does it simply steal into our lives or do we actively seek it out embracing it?

This kind of being does not naturally exist within us

This way of being is taught to us ever since the tender age of innocence

What happened to us?

What has happened to us?

That we now send ourselves-our children-out into this world like we send so many young men and woman to war

This darkness looms over us...

Waiting and praying to find a weak point on our surface or in our lives so it can seep its way in

Its always there, hiding in plain sight

Nobody tries to understand anymore

Hate has almost become a value that everyone holds so dear to everything that they love

With hope and faith failing...

We have come to realize that some of our loved ones won't have a safe return home

We willingly know that so many will be lost along the way...

When did we become so lost?

When did we lose our way?

We have become consumed by the lurking shadows

We have been swallowed whole by the darkness

This darkness continues to breed in the stale air around us

With each act that is taken against humanity by another human being

We are forced further down into submission, and to the most unfortunate irrevocable end

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it in you?

Is it your name?

© 2012

"Killing Time"

So suddenly things have changed

In an instant the world stopped turning

Life wakes you up with an unbearable shock when you finally see who you have become

With everyone obsessed with speed there is less time to treasure the finer things in life

Narrow viewpoints turn into hateful prejudice

Money is spent more and more, and we end up with less

With every convenience brought forth there is a new problem

Lost time diminishes our senses causing people to get angry too quickly

We’ve learned how to rush and rarely wait

No one is on time, everyone is running late

People live their life too recklessly and seldom realize that they have reduced their values

Lying is done too often, so stop talking and just listen…

Start adding life to years instead of years to life

We’ve conquered larger things, but not our inner being

Everyone has taken on hurtful habits that only pollute our souls

Goals are set as we work against ourselves to accomplish nothing

So we end up standing together alone

There is less communication, appeasement, and lower morals

Shorter tempers and steep bets follow shallow relationships

There is no more work involved because everything has become so easy to use

Where morality is thrown away without a second glance

Until there is nothing left to make life and the world to go away

There will be no pills, drugs, or easy fix

It is when the cheering comes to a deafening silence that once again we are left with time to kill…

© 2012