"Surviving the Odds"

Sometimes in this life we live through things that no one should ever have too...

In this world, life asks of us only what it thinks we can handle

No one can live their life by trying to fix the past

What is behind us now are but tiny matters

We all reside in the present-here and now

Not only do we need to live every single moment of our life, we need to do our best to exist

It can become so incredibly hard when we live our lives in doubt

Second guessing is no way to live

In this life we do what we have to do to believe in ourselves

Nothing in this world can compare to what lies within us

Even when the person we want to be, no one else can see

We must do our best to remember that the walls and boundaries that we put up around ourselves don't just keep others out, they fence us in...

Its always a hard choice when your struggling with how to decide between what is right, and what is easy

The truth is something that can't be forgotten

The truth doesn't have versions, only absolutes

Too easily do we let the negative out weigh the positive

We are always mourning the losses, because they are many

More importantly, we need to celebrate the victories, because they are few

We all have the right to be different, to not be like everyone else

We shouldn't have to live our lives as explanations, but as exclamations

Sometimes in life we live through things just to say that they happened

Sometimes we survive...

Sometimes we live to beat the odds.

© 2011

"Where I'm Found"

Slowly, my thoughts drift with the clouds above

A calming peace has found me

Moments slip from one to the next without much notice

My minds eye has random images of times past, present, and several things that have yet to be

My heart beat marches me forward

Step by step I make my own life

Building everything from something

A life worth living

A being I am truly proud of

Because I am not ashamed of who I am

Happiness has finally found my heart

My soul has found its wings

And I've learned how to fly...

Friendship embraces me

Convictions hold me

And most important...

I believe...

© 2011

"Memory Reflection"

In the coolness of the evening

My mind is lost in deep reflection

The grass is heavy with the beads of dew

Fireflies flicker in the humid fog

A million stars burst out from the deep velvet sky

Simply blinking and twinkling away

The hours passed whisper to the ones of tomorrow

My heart is happy

Content in these found moments

And my mind is filled to the brim with new and exciting memories

As the hour grows late, my eyes weigh heavy

Sleep calls me sweetly

Tender warm comfort calls to me to the embrace of my bed

Where more chances to dream still await...

© 2011

"Beyond Resolve"

The trail of friendship grows cold in the shadows of all things that have come to pass

You are no longer the person I once knew

Guard to my secrets and a protector to my well being

Life has anchored you down into a rut of your own making

Causing you to make choices out of want, rather than need

No longer can I stand idly by holding your hand

Keeping our friendship true

Because for you, somewhere along the line

The importance of me ceased to matter to you a little less each passing day

And after waiting for far to long...

It is my every right to deserve better than this

Instead of the anger that I now hold

I've whispered, screamed, and yelled my discomfort

But your headless ears have not listened to me yet...

A film of sadness holds my heart

My explanations have been given

But no rhyme or reason as to why has fallen from your lips

Distractions hold your wandering eyes

And I fear that I am no longer a big enough person to carry the burden chained to me

Choices have been made

And it takes two...

But being left abandon I will have to come up with my own resolve

I've said it once, and I will say it again

I no longer know the person I once knew

And the stranger before me is asking to much

With bonds broken

Treasured friendship is lost

Everything stolen...

Choices and actions have there own consequences

I am proof of this...

And still with no apology of validation made

I don't forgive the acts taken against me

Because you cannot convince me anymore that you truly care

That is why sympathy is always given

It can never be asked for.

© 2011

"Eye On Me"

I see you looking...

Your warm and curious eyes staring

I wonder?

Just how far can you see into me with your penetrating stare?

Is it only skin deep?

Do you like what you see?

Your eyes wonder...looking, almost searching

What is it that your hoping to find?

Are you looking deeper?

Is it my mind?

Your smile speaks volumes

The sparkle and glimmer upon your face assures me that your finding what you seek

Do I hold what you want?

Have you come to know the true me by just staring deeply?

Have you found my heart beating?

Have you found the exhilarating life force that drives me?

Have I pulled you in?

Or am I willingly surrendering to you?

Your lips part...

Exhaling lightly...

Have I taken your breath away?

Because you've certainly have captured mine

Eye to eye we are locked

Embraced in long moments of time and space

As the world around us drops and melts away into the foreground

Leaving us two lonely star crossed hearts to await each others first move

And the intensities that are contained within them.

© 2011

"Just As You Are"

Deep within the black soft velvet of the night sky

My eyes trace out the stars

One by one single lines are drawn

Bringing together the heavens

Sewing them neatly within my thoughts

Long moments pass spent in reflection
I smile at the simple thoughts of you

Though I have yet to venture on passed the first few steps of hello

I am eager for the chance given

And the chance taken

So, here I am

Ready...

Lets take this next step together

Because all that I need you to be is here

Just as you are.

Published in: "Fire and Light"
Anthology of verse
Poetry Institute of Canada

© 2011

"Stepping Forward"

Sitting alone with my thoughts I reflect upon all the moments

No words are spoken

Not even to myself...

The prison built around me has now crumbled

The cell door has no more lock

My feet can feel the grit upon the path before me

I've taken the first step forward

As some say, the most difficult

I bound forth into my life already in progress

No more tears will be shed into the moonless nights

The waiting has ended

I now choose for me

From the eternal night

I welcome the light

Every never-ending question now becomes slowly answered

The warmth of the sun takes over

And fills up what seemed to be empty for so long

A precious tear escapes the corner of my eye

As the feeling of freedom and comfort begin to set in

For the first time in my life I find myself in complete peace

I close my eyes and concentrate upon the happiness building within

Waves of relief wash over me like a silent summer breeze

What seems like only moments has actually been hours

Steadily, I rebuild the image of me

And who I want to be

Second guessing no longer has a place within me

Though not anywhere near complete...

Ruin has been the road of transformation for me

And no longer will I ever let my thoughts undo me

Because somewhere deep down inside of me I some how knew that I would finally find me

I just simply got a little lost for a while...

And love it or hate it...

I am simply and solemnly...

Me.

© 2011