"The Song Remains The Same"

I'm sorry...

I cannot fix your broken

While you continue to try and break me...

There comes a time when abandonment is the only option

Exhausted is the caring and concern

Good will is used

Extended hands are filled with blame and excuses

Reasons know not why this state of being remains

The distance away from the truth

Becomes the effort of a lie

And I refuse to be gathered up

Bundled up within the secrets kept upon unparted lips

Like your broken words

The song remains the same...

A tale of mistrust and the inability to be you

Your actions step over a line

I have to draw over and over again...

You made your choice...

I was not wanted

That moment came

And is now passed

Sad is the emotion thought

Just how much attempt was given

You were too weak to embrace my heart

And not strong enough to break it...

© 2020

"To Begin Again"

Another day done...

Moments made...

Hours counted...

The fall of the setting sun

Eyes watch the horizon with colours reaching out

As if coming from beyond the end of the world

Thoughts and reflections of lessons learned

The things we now know...

And the questions longing for answers...

Sometimes there is still light...

Where you think there is only shadow...

Maybe the destination we reach is a place where we must begin again

Because just as you think of giving up and surrendering...

And you choose to stand up and start to fight

That is surviving...

It's the choice made

The breath of freedom gained

Beyond the bitter sting of tears

Forgiveness is everything given or nothing taken

To release a person from the feelings of anger

Life brings out the truest of colours

Words and actions

And when its hard for some one to speak...

Its up to us to do our best to listen

Take notice...

With honour and loyalty

The brave and grateful

Those who stick by and stand with you when others abandon

They have given you space to grow

Its awareness appreciated

Love that which seems unlovable

And only judge when you find yourself the definition of perfect

This day is done

Rest your weary head

Tomorrow is another

All for you...

Living...

And to begin again.

© 2020

"Silence Speaks"

Silence can take on many shapes and forms

It's abandonment...

It's solace...

A void held when words fail to bridge the distance

Or it can be moments broken...

A breath stolen...

Respect abused...

Silence can mean a being is exhausted from fighting

A realization made

That the energy put forth is wasted

When there is nothing left to embrace

Silence can mean a voice is tired of explaining

Feelings hurt...

Emotions scorned...

Silence is the aftermath of no explanation found

It's the adaptation to change

Conservation is time better spent

Silence can listen

Answers can be found

It's part of the healing process

Where the mind forgets to remember every day

From want's and needs...

To what is real and true...

Silence is removing yourself from the equation of chaos

To admit you are better off

Peace is silence

It's surrendering the moment

Taking a step back...

Or forward...

To move beyond

Gracefully...

And with dignity

As best as we can.

© 2019

"The Season Within Us"

The months of the year have passed...

Time doing what it does best...

Marching and moving on

Carrying us along the path of life

With us experiencing the twists and turns

And trying to navigate the ups and downs

Ready or not, we are here...

A year remembered and reflected

Moments forgotten and remembered

Life shows us the story of us all

Nature tells us without a single word

Seasons change with flights of birds

Sunny days shortened still

Leaves of colour drift in the wind

Flowers rest and hide their bloom

We are these changes to...

Our very own spring, summer, and fall...

All moments under the sun

We are the things that have brought us here

Living passed lessons taught is survival learned

We are creating existence...

Because the days passed remind us of the true value of time

We all have chapters in our lives we do not share or read out loud

Be proud of the being standing here

Let passion, fear, and inspiration drive you

Life happens always...

Rise and learn

And despite it all, you are here

Let shine your inner light

Start where you stand, with all you have

A New Year is on the edge of tomorrow

365 days with all it's possibilities

And its all for you.

Peace to you this Holiday Season...

Merry Christmas!

© 2019

"Silent End..."

Actions sting...

Words seep into memory

Ingrained in the fabric of time

Emotions may or may not ever fade

I refuse to be the keeper of your unhappiness

Or sit by and watch you fall all over again

The line in the sand has long since been drawn

You just continue to choose to walk over it

With each passing, more harm is done

I am so tired of this tangled mess

The feeling of failure has built within me

That I, your dear friend, could not help you in anyway

Until the pure moment of realization hit me

I should not and will not be the only sole person in charge of your care

Especially when you barely care for yourself

As a friend there are times when things asked of you is simply too much

And I have already long since reached my limit

I have unfortunately allowed myself to be backed into a corner

Suddenly knowing that my help, love, and support has been helping you feed the monster that you had growing

So now when my words fall short

I am left with a deafening silence

No quick pro's, quotes, rhymes, or reasons...

Exhaustion bites at my heels as I leave you

As I try my very best to preserve my self respect

And remain a gentleman about it.

© 2019

"With This Day"

It starts...

One little thing

The beginning...

A single seed planted

It grows...

Moments gather together

Thoughts play out

The hours of the day already grow long

Strength needed is sourced out and put into play

Building blocks of a wall are constructed

Eyes search for the exit

Scenario by scenario runs through the mind

All upon a continuous loop

Decisions and choices

Between what is right...

And what is easy

Doubt draws near like fog filling in thick

Confusion gives way to sadness

Anger is the by-product of everything left over

These are the moments when thoughts pause

Fight or flight...

You remind yourself that its just a bad few moments or hours

A bad day that needs to be done

It comes down to the ultimate choice

Though I do not surrender completely...

I am more than finished with this day

For it has taken from me...

More than I can give.

© 2018

"Serve You Well"

The bonds we did not break...

Are not solely up to us to repair...

From what is done and said

Is a step away from the truth

Now becomes the distance of a lie

Mistakes left uncorrected

Brings shadows

Gray shades colour in where radiance once shone

Life has so many paths

Leading us all...

Good or bad...

Most would not even give it a second thought

But we should give thanks to all that has brought us here

Each moment a building block in time

We do our best to forget

To stop loving...

Or caring...

But there is no true disconnect

Everyone and everything its a part of us from the beginning

And to the end...

Its the acknowledgment given

That we have learned what has been taken

Grown passed that which we cannot understand

To be more than that moment

Allowance in forgiveness is heavy

Let go of that which does not serve you well...

Hate is just another way of holding on

Release the ties...

If not for them...

Do it all for you...

Unlock the chains of guilt

Set free the anger that pollutes your heart

Bitterness, fear, distrust should not be held within the same hand as love

Embrace yourself

Live passed the lesson learned

Because you don't live there anymore.

© 2019