"Soul Storm"

There are words that bear pointed barbs

Like sharpened swords at the ready

Silent in one moment

Then at the ready to fight

And no matter how much preparation or armor worn

They pierce through

Each syllable stinging

The burn of once passion filled words turned

Of specifically formed words of malice

The pain of truth seen...

A storm breaks...

Rivers of tears run through

Sweeping up once prized possessions

A whirlwind of motion

As the realization hits

Everyday it strikes like lightening

Through the slit within the clouds of memories

Thoughts are set on fire

And some burn through the night

Darkness pulls itself in

Attempting to calm the nerves

Until the golden beams of the morning break

A quiet moment is won...

As breathless as the sun

And as long as the roaming day

There is a noiseless onset

Its a victory seen as compete

Because its the keenest of marksman

With the most accomplished shot

Times perfect target

Is those things forgot...

© 2019

"Laid To Rest"

From vibrant colours of life

The eyes did not see the gray...

The beginning stages of darkness creeping in

Senses began to wonder

Losing their track

Footsteps faltered

Questions began

Building by the seconds passed

Time filled up with empty spaces

Leaving holes within conviction

Hours began to run cold

Temptation was revealed to be an illusion

Promise of hope fled

Mistrust took root within the shadows of doubt

The beginning of the end came swiftly

Emotions tangled together

Lines were drawn without cause of recognition

Pointed fingers of blame shot like arrows

Before the thoughts were formed

I found myself lost

Locked away inside my mind

Conversations looped

Misleading intentions

Boundaries were ignored

You crossed that divide

Folding my life into two

Abandoning me on a path to a place I could not follow

Making the life within my heart question existence

All the edges of my being rounded off smooth

Bitterness bit in

Anger grasped a hold of my baited breath

Limiting the compassion given

To the point of no return I was pushed

Questioning everything...

To that heart stopping moment of realization made

That I loved you... until I hated you...

Making my only choice in belief

That you are now better off as a memory...

© 2019

"The End Of Forever"

Scared is the breath brave enough to live

Emptiness fills my lungs

The embrace of doubt constricts me

A line drawn...

Pure darkness

Shades darker than dark

This is the sign

Warning those approaching

Beware of the consequences of trespassing against me

Silence fills the air

Deafening negative vibes echo through the space of disconnect

Bitterness is bread from anger

Magnified by conditional love

Sharp words pierce the thin veil of what use-to-be

Revealing all that has come to pass

Time stands still

The last sweet notes of this beautiful love song are played

Regret would be found if I chose to continue to listen to this

I offer no apology for surviving

Forgiveness to myself eases the former excuses given

I remove myself from that man

The mistakes of the past are behind me now

Not in front of me

And this path I take

I've learned the lesson of you

Just as I was about to crucify myself upon the embrace of your love.

© 2019

"Straight Ahead"

Like the night...

Shadows have moved over the light

Doubt casts shades of gray

To all places colour once shone bright

Emotions weigh

Tension pulls...

The minds eye calls out for an anchor

To be back to its safe harbor it once called home

Swaying with the waves

The heart drifts alone

The horizon line...

Like a conclusion, seems infinite

Close enough...

Yet so far out of reach

Life is at the mercy of the changing tide

For the realization comes quietly

Almost silent at first...

That the senses don't pay any bother

Now it builds...

Growing...

A presence known

From an embrace broken

A sign...

A beacon calling...

Burning red...

Danger...

Straight ahead.

© 2019

"Grow As We Go"

We as people...

Are simply different pages from the same story...

Called life...

Moments gather

Memories made

Experiences form our being

With each step upon the path we take

We grow and learn as we go

The human range of emotion is endless

And some realizations have to be made

That some people in our life are not meant to walk with us

Especially when we need conviction...

And they have trouble believing...

I will not be killed with pleasant kindness

Hollowed darkness to cover up the lies

I leave the abandonment here

I am beyond the waiting...

I am worth more than pretending

The choice is mine to choose

Heads or tails

Win or loose

I refuse to sift through the ashes of nothing...

This will not define my next action

Motivation is the root found

Forgiveness may be given

But no excuse can remove the behavior done

Trust again is denied

I let go...

To allow myself to move on with my life

It is within my power to do that

We all can create change

Its up to us...

Because if not, who?

And if not now, when?

© 2019

"Before All This"

Once upon a time...

There was a bright place inside my heart for you

Until that fateful day when you turned out the light...

Throughout my being dividing lines were drawn

At war was my soul

Between what is now...

And all that use-to-be

Thoughts twisted together

Emotions swayed like a pendulum

Heart and mind broke

Moments lost their strength

My eyes remained clouded by tears

Hidden beneath the rain was the confusion

Lies were sorted with truth

Some had meaning...

Others reflected words beyond imagination

Carrying myself in my own embrace

Through what seemed like an endless state of being haunted

My world inside a world stopped moving

Until all the yesterday's

Turned into today...

And another tomorrow came

Across the border line I walked

Outliving those effects of you had upon me

Learned is the soul

Survival forward is the path I walk

My heart beat for life drowns out any whisper or echo that tries to remain

All that was has faded with the darkness

This forward motion now blossoms vibrantly

Emerging with the warmth of the sun

This now...

A new day...

And then another....

© 2019

"Living Proof of Existence"

Screaming memories call

Clear vision blurs

Tears rain down in between each wave of realization

Senses reach the point of breaking

The pulse and surge of life plays tug-a-war with my emotions

All that was is caught in up the middle of what use-to-be

Days become markers in time

Like tombstones of years and moment put to rest

All etched with times and dates

Remembrance pays its due

I am the keeper of this

To define it with my own meaning

There is no rule to follow

Or right path to take

All that I know is...

I am not this which currently holds me still

I am the living proof of your existence

The honour carried in heritage

Sunlight to darkness...

Today to tomorrow...

Gives me hope for a better day

And like a melody once played

You are recalled and remembered fondly

So I walk forward...

With you as much as I do without you

Because sometimes you can't turn off the salt water rain from your eyes after the darkest of nights...

And the most terrible days...

Those tears were meant for existence...

To fall and to be experienced for a reason...

Its a final lesson taught...

An acknowledgment with grieving.

© 2019