"Allowance and Acceptance"

Frustration scrapes through the thoughts

Bouncing off the hard edges of the truth

Eyes search

One foot in front of the next

Your only guarantee is feet must be moved forward

The compass within points ahead

Our past was lessons learned

Not something to hold us back

Sentencing us to a life not lived

We know better...

Its not that our mouths lack the words

Scared are the actions of failing to follow through

Strained is the strength to carry the burden

Like puzzle pieces floating on the river of life

Desperate to connect and fit in

We are the creator

Own the moments...

Be brave...

Breathe...

This is for the greater good

It gives the permission to say, “its okay...”

Its your allowance and acceptance

Because the alternative of staying forever silent

Is like dying...

Be present

Have faith

And live it

Embrace the worth in caring

And if today you run out of sunlight

The darkness of night will pass

A new horizon will break

To offer more perspective

Because regrets already are so many unsolved emotions

And choices never taken.

© 2019

"Cut From The Heart"

Tears once ran

Faster than my thoughts could carry my feet

Memories took arms with what has come to pass

Half truth is still part of a whole lie

Refusal to heal what hurt you in the past

Will only cause you to bleed onto those who did not cut you in the present

Until enough is enough

Making it to far gone already

My hands reached out to give

Your hands only wanted to take

Words fell short

Until you asked me to fill the silence you were all to eager to create

Breeding the excuses to hide the reasons to believe

Questions asked became the quest traveled

Though nothing could be done to bridge the distance between us

Love blinds the mind

Allowing toxic things done ignored

Seemingly to justify the scares left

Just because the one loved beyond my own safety

Was holding the knife

Cut from this past connection now

My words still echo through

There was always a place in my heart for you...

Until you turned out the light.

© 2019

"Only The Memory"

I once wished...

A hope beyond any dream

That laughter would kiss my lips

My eyes would see such beauty within the soul

A warmth would grow

Glowing brighter than any sunset

Colours would flow through connections made

Even rainbows would be jealous of the vibrancy made

Smiles filled with hugs gave faith

Comfort and confidence came

For patience gave way to doubt

Acceptance of love was complete

Inspiration given to existence is life

One moment can be everything or mean an eternity

Or it can simply be a trick of the clock....

Tick-tock...

Here I am

Moved passed where I once was

I am the architect now

Allowing myself to build another dream

I am the dictionary

I define me

I will not cast shadows in my life

By standing in my own sunlight

Tomorrow gives me hope for a better day

Where I am not...

Is not as important as where I am now

Reminding myself briefly...

That its okay to miss the memories

And not the person...

© 2019

"Within The Words"

It begins all upon a thought

A whirlwind of action

Like a thunderstorm breaking

Or a hurricane breaching the shore line

The dark clouds part

The sun shines bright

Darkness and light mix together

All at its peak

The surge...

You wrestle it down and the words begin to flow

Quick and swift

Smooth and hard

Beaten, raw, and bleeding

Softly, elegantly they assemble themselves in order

Like building a rose petal

Or constructing a great tapestry of your being

The soul broken open

Existing purely within the moment

Words travel from head to hand at lightening speed

Words harsh

Of scorn...

Or a sweet love

And tenderness...

Some how these movements make sense of it all

From beginning, middle, to end

You know that these words are your own

And you are better off for writing them

For experience learned

To live the truth within

Seeking the wisdom they embrace

And to own every ounce of them.

© 2019

"The Creation of Abandonment"

How do you loose something that you wish would never return?

You learn...

You experience all its existence in raw form

Till moments pause...

And the roar of the battle falls silent

Embracing myself

I carry my being here

I cry freely...

Your presence is now a burden gone

The war within surrenders

Pace finds its way back within

My feet find the ground again

From moments where emotions turned dark

The connection and the vibe changed

Conversation died...

Tired was the effort of my being

To always be the keeper of everything

Forgiveness is declined

For you had trespassed so fa beyond my limitations

That all reason of explanation has fled

Cruel was the torment inflicted

Love twisted beyond recognition

You came to fear my light

While continuing to embrace your darkness within

Until compassion could not win

The answers come now to the first question asked

Not even I knew the freedom felt or gained

By the act of surrendering all that was to yesterday...

With complete peace of abandonment.

© 2019

"Moments Of Meaning"

I pleaded...

Please do not go where I cannot follow...

Each feeling and emotion became a fight

Life moments a sacrifice...

Senses struggled with thoughts and memories

All actions came with hidden meanings and messages

A darkness within grew

Spreading outward it crept

Shadows were cast as you came to fear my light

My heart made you a priority

All the while your care for me

Did not exist within the options you created

Love was suppose to be the safety net to catch you as you fell

Little did I know...

Your mind was committed to only you

The heaviness built silently

You stood upon my shoulders breaking my will

Using me as stepping stones to the place you wanted to be

All I ever did was try...

All you ever did was undermine my efforts made...

Tangled are thoughts of connection

Intertwined with life and meaning

I use to be someone else

Before all this...

You changed me...

Some parts have become soft

Others hardened

A lesson learned

In betrayal and trust

Eyes wide open now

A promise made to myself

And forgiveness to my being to be at peace

To never apologize for doing ones best with what has been given...

And for surviving...

© 2019

"Reflection In Light"

It can be astounding just how many shadows can be cast by one being

Sometimes when all that you are doing is trying to survive

It becomes all to common to loose sight of yourself

Thoughts build

Meanings change with emotions and feelings

No matter what all the other voices say- or the one in your head

You are enough...

You are worth the effort and fight

Feel the love when caring faces speak your name

Never regret the things that made you smile

These moments lived define us

The best gift you can give yourself is forgiveness

Hold tight

Be the reason to believe

You can't fight if you don't try

Take one step

From where you are now

To the place you want to be

And when strength fades

Sometimes we must lean on those who care

Together we can shine bright the light...

Leading us through the darkness.

© 2019