Monday, 23 May 2016

"Bargaining..."




His mind is a whirlwind beyond all thoughts, questions, or reasons
How vividly are life's horrors burned into his memories
His eyes are dark as eternal night
His skin is aflame with sorrow and crippling pain
He chews upon his lower lip until it bleeds
He has found his true self within the arms of another
But the forever watchful eyes of the world has him regretting his choice
He has sold his soul to the devil
He tries to laugh at his misfortune, but sounds fake
His eyes hurt and burn with sadness
He mentally disciplines his heart for yielding to such temptation
His raging emotions seep through the concrete walls that he has put up around his heart
His mind screams as the break of dawn only brings guilt as well as light
He slowly creeps away from the sleeping devil who has stolen his soul
He sits in a darkened corner away from the twilight
So desperately does he need to be rescued
He bargains with his sanity...
His whole life rests precariously upon the edge
He holds onto a phone book, scanning its pages
Help cannot be obtained within the names of those he loves
His trembling fingers trace column after bold letter column
Tears rain down, smearing the names
He blinks blindly at the numerous pages before him
Time stops while he searches in vain for his soul...



Published in: "Whispers In The Wind"
Anthology of verse
 Poetry Institute of Canada


© 2016

Sunday, 15 May 2016

"With This Day"



It starts...
One little thing
The beginning...
A single seed planted
It grows...
Moments gather together
Thoughts play out
The hours of the day already grow long
Strength needed is sourced out and put into play
Building blocks of a wall are constructed
Eyes search for the exit
Scenario by scenario runs through the mind
All upon a continuous loop
Decisions and choices
Between what is right...
And what is easy
Doubt draws near like fog filling in thick
Confusion gives way to sadness
Anger is the by-product of everything left over
These are the moments when thoughts pause
Fight or flight...
You remind yourself that its just a bad few moments or hours
A bad day that needs to be done
It comes down to the ultimate choice
Though I do not surrender completely...
I am more than finished with this day
For it has taken from me...
More than I can give.



© 2016

Sunday, 8 May 2016

"Words of Poison "



From your high horse of righteousness you preach
Causing stares
Pointed fingers
And words of murmured hate
Darkness spreads from underneath your every utterance
You claim to bring forth a cure
Yet you spread like a disease
You are not saving anyone
Only killing those who are brave enough to believe
Do not mistake privilege for superiority
We deserve to know our own happiness
This should not have to be compromised
Yet no apologies will ever be made
Because according to you...
This is what the truth feels like.




© 2016

Monday, 2 May 2016

"Last Place"



As I lay here in the dark
Eyes drifting towards the sky
Stars shine...
Darkness embraces me
Chilling my skin
Thoughts race
Lips quiver...
A strange blast of sound comes from my mouth...
As I scream out into the blackness
Horror made audible
Now echoes through the empty space around me
Sharpe words cause my heart to bleed
Tears flood my soul...
Because what you have done is more than hurt...
This is pain...
Anger....
Its devastation to the core...
And you put me here.



© 2016

Monday, 25 April 2016

"Yesterday Gone"




I bury my face deep within the palms of my hands
Filling them with tears...
Sometimes its not how or why things happened
The fact that they happened at all is bad enough...
Some memories are not simply just in our heads
Some you can remember so clearly
Because you can feel them physically ache within you with every waking breath...
Why is the reflection in the mirror-for some-never what they see?
And that its so easily forgotten that the courage and strength we need is already held within our hearts?
But when doubt and darkness take hold
Its a deep embrace not so quickly broken
Regret becomes the haunting ghost you cannot control
And existence can only be gained by living...
Making it the common understanding that you shouldn't have to kill yourself this much to live...
But as you cut the words, “I'm sorry” into your arm...
It spills out all the secrets of your life...
We who remain
Fall short on words, actions, or reasons...
And bare the hardest part
Anger...
Sadness...
Grief...
And forgiveness...
Leaving only tiny pieces of the larger things that use-to-be
And like all yesterdays gone
You where here with us...
Now, you are gone too.



© 2016

Monday, 18 April 2016

"My Last Confession..."



Your actions cause me to utter the cruelest words that I've ever spoken...
Angry is the heart that has had its love broken...
Tainted are the memories made
Turned away are the eyes that once looked so fondly
For your actions done
Have tattooed finger print stains upon my skin
I use to believe in you the way you did in me...
Caring..
Loving...
True...
Dark now is the light that once shone bright
Changed is everything
What came to be...
Is now use-to-be...
Memories to be soon forgotten
As I let these moments pass
Settling my racing heart
I catch my breath
Making this my last confession made
Above all else...
Let the truth of the matter be known...
From this day forward
And every moment after this
You will fail to inspire anything of any worth...
Anymore.



© 2016

Wednesday, 13 April 2016

"Lines Of Release"




Some of these moments that follow
Are those in life rather passed by
We struggle to find those things lost
Or have yet to come to be...
And I find myself here
Hit with the steadily growing realization that I have led myself a stray
I've been walking in the wrong direction...
All this time I thought I was moving towards affection
Only to discover you are not the reason why my eyes search so intently
The colour has faded...
The tide has changed...
What once came to be seems like a distant memory...
The words that fill these lines are my final goodbye
For I no longer see myself reflected within you
Sometimes you reach that point in time with another being...
Where the lines of life blur
Either your paths continue to connect...
Reflect...
Or disconnect...


©2016