"Shadow and Light"

Heavy thoughts collide

Forming cross roads in my mind

Emotions well up...

Tears build...

My heart is like pendulum swaying between what is right and what is easy...

I struggle to choke down the lump growing within my throat

Desperation pushes upon my core

My feet scream for action

They wish to place once foot in front of the other and run

I'm torn

Head spins

Stomach turns

I hate these moments that seem to last forever

All upon a single second...

But I stay where my feet are planted

Forcing myself through

Struggling...

Fighting...

Holding my breath until the next

My eyes silently scream at the reflection in the mirror

Because when there are shades of gray seeping through your life

It becomes difficult to tell the truth between what is shadow

And what is light.

© 2014

"More Than Never"

Cold in shadows

Some have forgotten how to fight in the light

How much of our lives are lived to late?

Because life should be lived by looking forward

Never back...

Think of your life as moments in time

Exist...

Because the worst kind of death is what dies inside of you

While we are still yet alive

Its better to make the change or choice

Rather than waiting for life to do it for you

But without action

The promise of, “it gets better”

Or “I'll make it all right” means nothing

When wrongs go on unchallenged

Conversations are forever left filling in the words of those absent

With remembrance

Keep in mind that comments and remarks take on many different shapes

Always be sure to check for pointed arrows

And that it to is an act that should be done in moderation

Choose compassion before judgment

Make the call...

Sometimes, in life, we have to be brave

To stand up for ourselves, and others

Because we are more than a victim.

Published in: "Island Magic"
Anthology of verse
Poetry Institute of Canada

© 2014

"Save Your Sorry"

Keep them all

Its one thing I don't need anymore of

No more apologies from you please...

I've got “I'm sorry” greeting me everywhere I go

They linger around every corner

There are ones leftover from the last time those words fell from your lips

So when I ask you...

Please don't...

You can keep your “I'm sorry”

I have so many

They have piled up

I trip over them as I am trying to walk away

I need to throw some of them away

At one time I use to hang onto them

Now, I simply just want to let go of them all

I'm gonna put a sign upon my front door

Because I don't want or need them

I let “I'm sorry'”and “I didn't mean to” soothe me once

But no more...

Let your own “sorry” hold your heart

While I tend to mine

You've beat me to death with “I'm sorry”

I'm black and blue and so very tired of you...

I once loved you on purpose

I was open...

Living and sharing everything of me on purpose

Taking in everything that is you

And I have now found myself at the end of this road before me

So take all of your guilt, lies, and stories with you

Please do not give anymore to me...

Because I cannot use another “sorry”

Anymore....

© 2014

"Enough Broken Words"

Sometimes enough is enough...

Sometimes, enough is already too much

Its not about being right or wrong

Sometimes it comes down to strength of conviction

And the principle of it all

Making me ask you

If you have to ask the question, then you probably already know the answer?

I have tried, and I am trying

I will always try

That is the best that I can do

But when promises break...

Expressed wishes are broken

Taking action only seems like a call to arms...

And when all words fall short and fail

What do you do?

© 2014

"February Tears"

We now carry your spirit deep within our hearts

Embraced tenderly in eternal love

Shine bright the moon...

The stars...

And the sunshine...

For the many days to come

You are here with us

Always.

© 2014

"Repeat"

Lost boy...

Here you are again

Found lost within

The time has come for you to repeat yourself

A page in history is being relived

The pain...

The upset...

And the damage...

Another choice made upon a whim to throw yourself to the wind

Planting temporary roots wherever you land

A home...

Companionship...

A career in the world made

Lost boy...

Here you are again

With unsettled feelings

Turmoil growing

Eyes searching

Possible new destination found

Far away from where you once last embraced your salvation

The page now rips

Do you rewrite or erase?

Bringing back the hand of time to zero

Devastation is brought to those who share and believe in your life

A new world shortly lived is now deceased

Lost boy...

Here you are again

Saying goodbye to the life you just grew

With words failing

No description is really ever made

Making all actions seem sudden

Instantly breaking all terms agreed upon

Leaving abandonment and the deep seeded emotion that you don't care within your wake

The time to move on is pushing upon your being

You pick yourself up

Taking a single swift breath

Setting out upon another quest

An adventure never really found and a craving that is never satisfied

Lost boy...

What are you truly looking for?

Have you forgotten that you are the needle within the compass of your heart?

Has your sight failed or are your senses tainted?

Because the same life you just lived

Is now due to repeat itself all over again wherever your feet land.

© 2014

"More Than This"

Cold in shadows

Some have forgotten how to fight in the light

How much of our lives are lived to late?

Because life should be lived by looking forward

Never back...

Think of your life as moments in time

Exist...

Because the worst kind of death is what dies inside of you

While we are still yet alive

Its better to make the change or choice

Rather than waiting for life to do it for you

But without action

The promise of, “it gets better”

Or “I'll make it all right” means nothing

When wrongs go on unchallenged

Conversations are forever left filling in the words of those absent

With remembrance

Keep in mind that comments and remarks take on many different shapes

Always be sure to check for pointed arrows

And that it to is an act that should be done in moderation

Choose compassion before judgment

Make the call...

Sometimes, in life, we have to be brave

To stand up for ourselves, and others

Because we are more than a victim.

© 2014