"Not A Love Poem"

The words that follow in the lines to come do not belong to any part of a love poem

The words written down are the ones that are in the shapes of needles

The ones that poke holes in my heart
Causing it to bleed faster than words can be spoken
No use worrying yourself over spilled blood

Especially when there is no more caring held within your heart

Blood drops splatter onto the hungry ground
They evaporate into thin air just like the love that was once contained in your heart
Like I said, this is not a love poem...

Instead of sweet melodies of our love song

Raw fury erupts through me
Everything within me wants to throw numerous verbal grenades

Even though I already know they will fall upon deaf ears
Have I mentioned yet that this is not a love poem...
Love has lost its worth

Pictures taken of happier times only show what use to be
I surrender myself to the realization

That you cut me out of your life without showing a single ounce of emotion
This is why this is not a love poem

And every love poem I did write will wither

Because they are written to a person I no longer know

My words flow faster than anger can peak...

They will not sit idly by tingling in my finger tips
They yearn to be free, expressed, and documented

Scribbled out in bright red ink and mounted upon your wall

Reminding you every single moment of every day that this is not a love poem

This is my heart screaming at you at the top of its lungs

I am here...

Standing alone, wounded, and exposed
This is why this is not a love poem...

If you even dare to read it

But I know you won't...

Because the coward within you has already told you to run

Leaving abandonment in your wake

With multiple questions left unanswered

It forces me to write this...
That this is not a love poem.

© 2012

"No More Chances"

Moments linger well after there is no more you and I

Making me realize the true problem with shadows

That they will always follow you wherever you go

Even standing here

In the middle of the pouring rain

I realize that there is not enough rain contained within the clouds to wash away the stain left behind by you

So when it comes down to any form of apology

The answer is no

You cannot erase the harm that you have done

Actions have been taken

Words have been spoken

That which is out there is already done

And it remembers all to well what its like to feel your so called love

So please respect my wishes

Second chances are given, not asked for

And the debt you now owe is way too much for me to lend you anymore credit

So feel free to wait

But I will not call or write

Because I will no longer chase after you anymore

It was your choice to walk out on me

And I am here....

Holding open the door.

© 2012

"Time Begins"

Bathed in the memories

With the recent past barely in full sight of my rear view mirror

I move on...

At first it was merely the seconds ticking by

Then the moments

Now, days pass by with better ease

My mind is not so easily distracted now by the partial remains left behind

With such a clean break...

A much as heartbreak and being abandon allow...

There is unfortunately not much to gather up

Words cease

Feelings slow

Emotions stop growing

Time begins to do what it always seems to do

Gently erases the strength and power it has over me

And helps ease the passing

It files all former love and passion away

Placed neatly in a box of things that use-to-be

Rested upon a shelf

In some long lost distant corridor of the mind.

© 2012

"Shadows..."

Today I have begun to see shadows where ever I go

Its everything that is you lingering around

Playing tricks with my senses

Multiple tender moments have yet to fade

My heart has only just begun to beat the same again

There are days that I catch myself falling back through memories

My voice is tempted to call out to you

But deep down I know

I will never breath your love again

Saddled with this new truth

Its a hard realization to bare

I cry silently through the passing

So where does time go between hello and goodbye?

What is the next step beyond moving on?

Because right now in this very moment

One day at a time seems like a very big step

When you are starting from a new beginning.

© 2012

"Suddenly Broken"

How quickly does happiness turn?

Moments like this fade along with smiles...

Tears stand on guard

Ready at any second to march down my face

Memories fail...

Its so easy to recall the recent past

Everything twists together now

Binding my heart

Labored breath holds me

I wish to scream aloud

But I hold in my broken voice

Like all things before me

I let the feelings slide away from me

As I begin the difficult task of pushing forward

Because like many things in life...

This... Your choice to break me....

Has happened all of a sudden...

© 2012

"Frozen Footsteps"

Waiting upon the edge

Here in a moment frozen

Holding still

Where time stops

Silence screams

Seconds tick by slowly, almost in reverse

Eternity comes and goes

Tears are afraid to fall

But linger none the less

Hiding close by

Just in case they are needed

Nerves fray

Every heartbeat is intimately known

Because every feeling, emotion, and movement here after is raw

Cut deep to the core

Changing everything that now lies before every footstep forward.

© 2012

"In Love"

Tenderly sweet and smooth

And nothing between us but our skin

Moments link to memories

My heartbeat matches yours

Fingertips leave fingerprints in soft places touched

The smell of warmth melts me smooth

And the taste of your kiss lingers upon my lips

Time slows and speeds by all in the same second

Hours unfold

Weaving a tapestry of a new history made

Word for word

Line by line

And page after page

Anchored by a fond growing connection

I finally allow myself to slip completely

And whole heartedly...

In love with you.

© 2012