"Options Chosen"

 

Sometimes...

We keep our mouths closed...

Because it's done out of fear...

And if we opened them, we would never stop screaming

There is a balance...

And a heavy weight all placed upon a single point

Waiting...

Hoping...

Or praying...

Because some people seem to wish to break the already broken in another

Which then pushes fear to anger, aching for an immediate release

It's tragically sad...

How people who bully, are toxic and belittle others, will never change

They only alter and change their victims lives

Making the line of eyesight shift...

Some how it starts the belief found that there is truth in all the negative

Reality blends with nightmares

Until the heart runs out of options chosen

Will the realization be made?

That we desperately need to distance ourselves from those who never admit fault

Especially when everything they have done violates every definition of wrong

Is it known to those who are listening?

Just how much respect was held, until they ran your name through mud...

There is no misunderstanding...

To hurt, means to harm...

So with these action now taken

We must do our best to turn away from those people for the sole purpose of survival

Do not succumb to the darkness they wish for you upon baited breath

Deny any sort of supposed truth within the words, “that this life was not meant for me...”

Allow the light to happen always

Release the embrace of where you stand

You cannot rebuild yourself with every yesterday passed...

Motion forward calls you

Feel the calm and peace

And be found here within today's creation

© 2023

"The Ability Within"

 

Yesterday...

Was today's hope...

A wish made for another moment in living...

To witness our own creation daily

Because we are this existence

Learning on a forever changing time line

Never deny your capacity to feel

But limit the access to those who wish to use it against you

Do not censor your inner being to appease others

Stop rewarding inconsistency with unavailability

Set free the broken kept...

Shed the heavy weight...

The sharp pointed pieces only cause more harm when embraced

Letting go can mean so many things

It doesn't mean giving up...

Maybe it just means that after all this time you are finally beginning to see

That even without closure, you are worth a new beginning

That sometimes we just simply have to let it hurt

Feel it...

And then release it...

It is not your responsibility to confine yourself to anothers definition of completion

You are not obligated to suffocate your bloom in growth

Because someone refuses to grow with you

It's an intense truth...

But reality knows...

If they wish to destroy you...

Then your survival is offensive to them

This is why pain only creates change within you that you would never choose

But healing creates options you can change with choice

So acknowledge the ability within darkness

Its part of all of us...

But remember always

Without it...

We would never know the possibilities within the light.

© 2023

"Only By Us"

 

Strange, isn't it?

As much as we know ourselves...

We still grant another being full access to our inner core

And we will crumble to pieces every time...

Especially when careless words fall from their lips

Even though they have never lived a second of our life they have spoken of

We listen...

But reality always shows truth

People can't give what they don't have themselves

Reflection is always looking back

Through the remnants of so many moments

The past is now behind us

We are not what use to be

Because healing comes in waves

Like the changing of tides of the seasons

Each layer is a new discovery

Emotions that resurface through the stages of life

We are not defined by the darkness of trauma

Only by our choice to react to it

Survival is light seen

Breathing amongst the footsteps taken

Even when the embrace that holds us exceeds our conscious of understanding

It's what we give and take...

Pain is always the price we pay for growth

That is why we refer to it as growing pains

Exhale yesterday...

Tomorrow calls your name

Acceptance is the realization in learning

That it only ever should be you against you

Fighting for yourself...

By focusing on your own inner voice

Because it's the only one that matters.

© 2023

"Not Always"

 

It's okay, to not be okay...

Because some days are harder than others...

And you are not where abandonment left you

Remember, some things have to end for better to begin

We must teach our heart to accept things that will not change

Some people within your life will not be happy that your healing

Sadly, they benefited from your brokenness...

So this now becomes your pivoting point of change

There will always be someone with a little more than you

And there will always be someone who has a little less than you

Please, stop comparing...

Otherwise happiness will always elude the search

Life is imperfect, everyday...

Hope comes in many forms and shapes

And strength looks different from day to day

The willingness to change is the act of courage

It makes us a little braver every time

You are allowed to change your mind

Adjust your values and preferences

Daily, we evolve from the being of yesterday

This is your life...

Dark parts of us do exist and they need to be heard

Because they deserve our love too

This is how we journey through ourselves

By not apologizing for the fire of hope burning within

No one gets to decide our degree of silence or servitude

Or dictate your passion of heart...

Courage does not always have to roar loudly

Sometimes in some days it whispers quietly

Saying, “You have done your best, and tomorrow is another day to try again...”

Self-love isn't just an act of self-care

It's also learning to not beat yourself up for not being anything more, or anything less, than who you are now

A human being...

Breathing in and through this moment to the next...

By being okay with where you are now.

© 2023

"Uncomfortable Truth"

Moments gather...

Until the realization is made...

And understanding is finally seen...

That unspoken words begin to weigh a lot

And they usually tend to start speaking for themselves

You cannot control how other people receive your energy

Anything you do or say gets filtered through their lens of perspective

Which more times than enough, is their interruption, and it has nothing to do with you

And more about themselves...

It's the uncomfortable truth

You cannot convince, force or persuade people to understand

To love, listen, forgive or even accept any part of us

People are who they are

And we have options created...

Even if we don't like the choices we are presented with

Some disconnections will bring back quality of life

Because peace of mind carries an uncountable price

Turning the page of this day into the next chapter of tomorrow that always comes

And it is never easy to know that someone won't be there to see it

But like every day, the story does go on...

It's one of our greatest awakenings within the hard lesson learned

Not everybody changes...

Some people will never change...

And that is their journey and position taken

It's not ours to try and fix them...

Because shutting down instead of communicating

Can be just as toxic as arguing...

Stop showing them you will stay for anything

Because that is why they continue to put you through everything

Love should not have to be earned

It's freely given...

Respect is a basic human kindness

We are a being of time moving us forward

The best revenge given, is none...

Heal to the best of your ability

Thrive within the light that is absent of their darkness

So you never become like those who hurt you.

© 2023

"Not All of Us"

Remember...

Even when you are told to forget...

Your value stays constant, whether you see it or not...

You are not a selfish being for wanting to be treated well

Do not lower your worth or standards to keep anyone

Make them meet you at your level

Self-respect is power...

Understand that each and every one of your feelings are valid

Every single one of them

Even when you are too much...

Or love too hard...

Give the permission to yourself to disconnect from the hate

We should not have to bare every ounce of another beings darkness

We are not the personal graveyard for them to bury their pain in

Abandonment is a cruel form of emotional control

Don't ever apologize for feeling

And when words seem to fail...

Silence always speaks...

And it's a powerful response

You are not a bad person...

But there are some things in life that do break us

And sometimes it makes us do and say things we do not understand

But there comes a choice

When so much attempts to be stolen from us

Safeguard the right for self-preservation

Not all within us needs to be sacrificed at the altar of survival

There still is another breath within your lungs

And a flame lit within your soul

Reach and embrace the glow

Life is existence

In every single second

Remember that.

© 2023

"Every Day Now"

 

The fear is real...

That you may take one false step...

From where you stand, and break

So you hold it in...

Building the flood gates higher

Fortifying your defenses

As you think back to a different time when so many words did not hurt so much

When scars healed, rather than being replaced by more wounds

When does the moment come?

Or has it already passed?

That we have been trying desperately to be something or some one we are not

All for the sake of, “This is who we should be...”

Because we have carried this ideal with us

Through the years in heartache and happiness

From a new hope found in all the moments in between

Especially now as the balance within life begs for a change

Are you listening?

Our finger prints don't fade from the lives we've touched

Memories are the strongest link to the past

We are today...

Existence as it happens...

We are not under any obligation to prove anyone right or wrong

On the list of things kept within life, make yourself a priority

Realize the difference...

Don't take criticism from a being you would not take life advice from

Because at the end of it all, you are the longest commitment you will ever have

Work the problem or obstacle with understanding

Where you are, is not who you are...

Bad chapters in life can still make great stories of survival

Wrong paths taken can still guide us to a better place

Failed dreams can lead to the successful creation of new ones

Sometimes it takes losing yourself to find yourself

Because as odd as it sounds...

Allow the lesson learned to be able to hold space for grief in loss

As well as thanks within gratitude.

© 2023