"I'm Tired..."

Tired is my state of being

From words that have gone unsaid

By the actions not taken

And the moments not returned

I'm tired of the lies

The abandonment...

And all of the hurt

I'm tired of the heartbreak

The let down

And the emotions that go unresolved

I'm tired of the broken dreams

Of picking up the pieces of me...

And the lack of any chance given

I'm tired of being tired...

For I knew finding love would be hard

I just never thought it would be like this...

I deeply wish being found was as easy as being lost seems to be...

I'm tired after each days end

I'm tired of never seeming to be good enough...

Even though I know I am.

© 2016

"Within The Lines"

I look at you...

And see you

The being hidden deep within

A reflection of parts of me

Reaching out...

Wanting to connect

Emotions and feelings

Some only are known by the senses

While others can't so easily be obscured

Honest moments build and pass

We are more a like than we are different

Brave is your curiosity...

But your actions lack conviction

Silence weighs heavy under the words left unsaid

My every wish for your being is to be free...

From the secrets that you haven't told

Don't push me away...

Then wonder where I went

I am here...

Waiting...

Arms wide open...

Holding out hope...

But I cannot embrace, “maybe or I don't know...”

So I must surrender to what is...

And what I know now

That until you are ready to receive anything I have to give...

I will continue to hide you within the lines of my poetry.

© 2016

"Sunlight Heart"

Through the dark clouds sunlight breaks

Just as your heart opens

You are found

Holding your own

Brave...

Strong...

Ready to set your soul free

Choices done

Life decided

Optimistic...

And real

One breath...

One moment...

Another step forth

All work and effort...

Tears and blood...

Worth the sacrifice

The journey to find happiness

To be able to stand here upon your own two feet

Free.

© 2016

"All That You Have"

Pause...

Be still...

Be silent...

Take a second for you

Breath in...

Exhale...

Even if its all that you have to give today

Embrace this moment for you...

We are not perfect beings

Find comfort in knowing we are all continued works in progress

Learning...

Healing...

Changing...

Adapting...

Who are we to judge

How we are fixing what others or life has broken within us

Our happiness found or gained

Should not fall under any sort of shame

Sometimes its not about right or wrong

Or whats right and what is easy

More times enough its about validation

Its that calming embrace found deep within the words, “I understand”

When a helping hand holds you still

Wiping away your endless tears

We are the care givers of our humanity

The worth invested

And the debt taken...

All that is received or put out into the world

Making us the reflection of our true desires needed

Because life....

In all its various moments

Is meant for existence.

© 2016

"Its There"

The words...

The weight...

Of sentences gone unspoken

Now are the chains that bind you

And the confinement that you live within

Struggles of emotions and feelings

Its there...

Ever present

An unpleasant daily reminder

Of a battle that wages between thoughts

The path the heart and soul wish to lead

And the vision from what the world sees

Its there...

Confusion causes moments of darkness

A heavy embrace you wish not to bare

Especially when all that you want to do is live within the light

Even though bravery can be seen

Its existence is just beyond the horizon

Its there...

Awaiting your eager reach

Like a new dawn of a new day

It carries the sharp and exhilarating feeling of crisp air drawn in

Its a long awaited breath of ease and comfort

To no longer be numb from the devastation of turmoil

It there...

Holding out hope

With faith in action

Conviction and belief

And a heart open and full of understanding

There is decisions to be made

The compass within points true north

Strong and free

Its there...

Just like those of us who love and care

We stand in unity with you

A helping hand reaching out... always

When needed or called upon

For all the hours and moments

Day or night

Its there.

©2016

"Bargaining..."

His mind is a whirlwind beyond all thoughts, questions, or reasons

How vividly are life's horrors burned into his memories

His eyes are dark as eternal night

His skin is aflame with sorrow and crippling pain

He chews upon his lower lip until it bleeds

He has found his true self within the arms of another

But the forever watchful eyes of the world has him regretting his choice

He has sold his soul to the devil

He tries to laugh at his misfortune, but sounds fake

His eyes hurt and burn with sadness

He mentally disciplines his heart for yielding to such temptation

His raging emotions seep through the concrete walls that he has put up around his heart

His mind screams as the break of dawn only brings guilt as well as light

He slowly creeps away from the sleeping devil who has stolen his soul

He sits in a darkened corner away from the twilight

So desperately does he need to be rescued

He bargains with his sanity...

His whole life rests precariously upon the edge

He holds onto a phone book, scanning its pages

Help cannot be obtained within the names of those he loves

His trembling fingers trace column after bold letter column

Tears rain down, smearing the names

He blinks blindly at the numerous pages before him

Time stops while he searches in vain for his soul...

Published in: "Whispers In The Wind"
Anthology of verse
 Poetry Institute of Canada

© 2016

"With This Day"

It starts...

One little thing

The beginning...

A single seed planted

It grows...

Moments gather together

Thoughts play out

The hours of the day already grow long

Strength needed is sourced out and put into play

Building blocks of a wall are constructed

Eyes search for the exit

Scenario by scenario runs through the mind

All upon a continuous loop

Decisions and choices

Between what is right...

And what is easy

Doubt draws near like fog filling in thick

Confusion gives way to sadness

Anger is the by-product of everything left over

These are the moments when thoughts pause

Fight or flight...

You remind yourself that its just a bad few moments or hours

A bad day that needs to be done

It comes down to the ultimate choice

Though I do not surrender completely...

I am more than finished with this day

For it has taken from me...

More than I can give.

© 2016