"Life So Changed"

Sometimes we don't know...

The direction to take

Choices and answers are made or explained

There is only so much the mind can bare

Our vision only allows us to view so far ahead

Not all can be seen around each curve of life

Forgive yourself for not knowing...

You did the best with the time given

Unsettling is the feeling taken

When we do not have control of our own heart

Behaviors cause our footsteps to falter

Forgive yourself for doing what needs to be done

And the being you have to be...

Breath...

Be still in this moment

Sometimes this is how we survive

We are all fighting against that thought

Trying to live through the decision made

That when you say, “ I miss you...”

Doesn't mean, “I'm coming back...”

And “I love you...”

Doesn't mean that, “I am going to stay...”

© 2018

"We Are Life"

These are the moments

Actions and choices...

The act of movement of getting up with the sun

And being thankful for the breath taken in

Along with the ones put to rest with the darkness of the night

We are more than these emotions we feel or carry

We are not our past...

Those were experiences learned

Not to be a life sentence carried out

Mistakes do not define us...

We define us

Other definitions of what we deserve should not dictate our well being

Or path in life...

Life is meant to be lived out loud

Not in silence or among the shadows

Because denying your true self is never sound advice

To you be true...

Happiness is a right

Not something that must be earned

Though it does have to be sought out

Found and fought for...

Clear your mind of the confusion

Doubt usually means don't

Embrace the soul

Shine bright your inner being

For we have more worth to us than simply fading into all of the forgotten yesterdays

Take one step...

From where you are now

To where you want to be

That is survival at the root

The core...

The beginning...

Each day...

Each moment...

Here and now...

Remembering always

To go with life.

© 2018

"Take Step One"

You find yourself here

Shattered...

Even more than you have ever been before

The life you knew...

Now a thousand pieces

Words fall short

As you pray here down upon your knees

Let these moments gather in reflection

Even if it begins as a whisper

Tell your heart its OK to beat again

Close your eyes and breath in the wind of change

Yesterday was a closing door

An you no longer live there anymore

Now is the point of existence

You are still strong

Hold yourself together

Don't stop...

This is healing...

It doesn't have to be pretty or graceful

Just keep going...

Upon the horizon there is a new dawn

A day with many moments ahead

Let shadows fall

Embrace the sunlight once again

Find your feet

Take step one...

On this new road

To the person you want to be

For hope leads to belief

And conviction found.

© 2018

"A Days Beginning"

Dawn approaches softly

Smooth and silent the thick blackness begins to separate

The bright glowing stars have now begun to fade

The path leading to the heavens is closed until the next twilight

A mist of fog floats over the waters edge

The smell of the leaves of autumn suffuse my nose

A tiny shred of light breaks

As if out of no where

The earth opens its arms, welcoming the approaching new day

Everything is in slow motion

Its like natures picture show

A symphony for the eyes to behold

Blue hue colours smug through the thick veil of velvet black

Seeping across the sky

Bright colours appear, merge, and mix randomly

Bold streaks now line the horizon

Wisps of cloud are now illuminated

Like a water droplet upon a piece of paper written with ink

The vibrant colours of the rainbow bleed across the canvass of the sky

I listen to the sounds of the ripples of the water lapping against the rocky shore at my feet

With each break there is a memory

And another made anew to be recalled upon on another day

Looking within...

Through the eyes of love...

I think of you...

My long lost...

Because like the night, you have faded from me too

I smile at the fondness remembered

But like every contrasting moment

The former bitterness of a love lost still leaves a residual stain

But I subside my emotions and surrender myself to this moment

Here I am at peace

Treasuring the sublime paltry partial remains

That are just enough to hold me, yet let me move on

Because you are now part of my past

And just like the sunrise before me

This to shall pass.

© 2018

"Parts Of Our Story"

I could feel the colour run...

As it faded from my face

With the blinking of an eye

My view changed

And shadows grew...

Questions became a daily existence

Confused moments added together

Tearing away pieces of my sanity

Heartbeats follow footsteps

The light emerged

Casting its way through the darkness

Life had been put on hold for far too long

Held hostage to what could have been...

The signs came...

Realizations were made

Strength gained was a voice found

Power is now that voice used

And I could not break myself in half

Just to try and save a few parts of you

I am living my truth

Without your blurred vision and lies

You never understood my words spoken

Making my silence fall upon deaf ears

I release myself from staying with you for as long as I did

I was torn between not giving up on the person I loved

And coming to terms with the fact that the person I loved no longer existed...

It pains the heart to tell the mind this

It takes a while to believe

That sometimes we have to give up on people

Not because we don't care anymore...

But because they don't...

Its up to us to find the conviction within

Knowing that its not the end of our life

Its simply the end of their part within our story

Making them now...

The past...

A ghost that never was.

© 2018

"In Memory and Remembrance"

As dawn quietly breaks

The morning unfurls its gray wash over the flat countryside

A light mist seems to drift over the fields

As we come together on this day...

Many of us with dark circles, puffy eyes, and grief stricken hearts

We struggle with one of the worst parts about life

Saying the final goodbye...

Today, we have an official invitation to the dance of life

United we stand as one

And collectively we mourn...

May the boldness in our tears lend us the courage to transcend cynicism and fear

As hard as it is, our vision of the world, now changed

Should not alter...

Let this be the spark to re-light the fire within us all

Our spirit, and that of the ones we love can never be extinguished

In fond memory and deep remembrance we will fan the flame of those who have been lost

Because sometimes, all that we can ever do is try...

Try to make a difference in a world filled with so many differences

To try and change with a world full of so many changes

And to forever remember always

That tomorrow is never promised...

Life unfortunately reminds us of this today...

© 2018

"With This Day"

It starts...

One little thing

The beginning...

A single seed planted

It grows...

Moments gather together

Thoughts play out

The hours of the day already grow long

Strength needed is sourced out and put into play

Building blocks of a wall are constructed

Eyes search for the exit

Scenario by scenario runs through the mind

All upon a continuous loop

Decisions and choices

Between what is right...

And what is easy

Doubt draws near like fog filling in thick

Confusion gives way to sadness

Anger is the by-product of everything left over

These are the moments when thoughts pause

Fight or flight...

You remind yourself that its just a bad few moments or hours

A bad day that needs to be done

It comes down to the ultimate choice

Though I do not surrender completely...

I am more than finished with this day

For it has taken from me...

More than I can give.

© 2018