"Random Thoughts"

Time stands upon a moment

Stop

Pause

Reflect

Release...

Memories realize the true length of a single second

The surge

The push...

A constant forward motion

The heartbeat of life

A collection of emotions

A fire within the soul

Beings filled with light of infinity

Can cast so many shadows

Redefining darkness

We drive ourselves with blind vision

To places we do not wish

Understanding fails

Changing all

Words repeat

Silence speaks volumes

Deafening is the noise that can't be claimed

We are the keeper of this

The one who defines

Nurtures and consoles

We tend to keep more weeds in the garden of life that we do flowers

For our belief in them is skeptical

Based on a lie told to us once some time ago

We are everything that is nothing

Embraced by hope and faith we care

To the lengths of the earth we defend

All that which exists here before us...

Now...

© 2018

"Take Away"

Sometimes we pull ourselves apart...

Ripping ourselves to pieces by the senses

In a desperate hope held

That we...

In some way, shape, or form can cure ourselves of these emotions and feelings

We do so by withdrawing...

Over and over again

To repay a debt we believe we owe

Sometimes we are so eager to kill the pain...

We take away the love and joy

The light from the dark...

Pushing ourselves to the brink

The very edge of bankruptcy

To make ourselves feel nothing

Just so we don't have to feel anything

Is like death while living

Please remember...

Our hearts and bodies are only given to us once

Truth resides amongst freedom

Don't suffocate yourself inside a box that you cannot exist in

Colour outside the lines

Live

You were born to stand out

Let hope lead you to conviction found

Because faith would not be faith...

If you only believed in it when things were good.

© 2018

"With or Without You"

Why do we end up asking questions that we know we shouldn't?

Or already know the answer to?

I guess it is one of those things we can't help avoid

We are only human

Curiosity can be an interesting thing

Sometimes you just want to pick up your feet

One after the other

And run...

Sometimes there are those moments when tears fall

And you are not entirely sure the reason why

Questions and answers...

Are we ever ready to ask or hear either?

Like why do they call is heart break when everything feels broken?

If you have no space in your life for you

Then there is no space for some one or something new
Some sentences end...

All words form a complete decision

Strong and firm you have to be

Knowing that this is the better choice to take

And that no words shall ever fall from your lips after this moment

Because life continues to march on

With...

Or without you.

© 2018

"The Debt of You"

Over hoops and hurdles

Are the words that run through my brain

Traveling in circles

Though dizzy from the motion

Feelings and emotions are clear and sober

I've just managed to distance myself from everything that was us

For far to long my heart rested in your embrace

Footsteps now have lead me away...

I turned the anger into forgiveness

Tears dried...

But all trust has fled

The extended handshake of friendship comes with strings attached

Temptation is a cruel tool used

In an effort to redeem yourself entry into my life

The price you carry is more than I can afford

My ledger is free and clear

I owe you nothing...

Because more times than enough I pulled myself apart

Ripping myself into pieces

Trying to fit my frayed edges into your jagged and torn limitations

Sense screamed at reality

Love is not the cure...

Especially when someone withdrawals over and over gain

It leaves you with nothing

And still...

Here you be, like all the times before

Standing in front of me, asking for more than one can give

You took my to the brink of bankruptcy once...

For what?

To make yourself feel everything and I feel nothing?

This is the lesson I've learned

I am free from the debt of you

I wish you well

But here is where I pass you by upon the path of life

I in my direction and you in yours

I am glad you have found happiness and peace

I am...

But that is as far as I come.

© 2018

"Within The Lines"

I look at you...

And see you

The being hidden deep within

A reflection of parts of me

Reaching out...

Wanting to connect

Emotions and feelings

Some only are known by the senses

While others can't so easily be obscured

Honest moments build and pass

We are more a like than we are different

Brave is your curiosity...

But your actions lack conviction

Silence weighs heavy under the words left unsaid

My every wish for your being is to be free...

From the secrets that you haven't told

Don't push me away...

Then wonder where I went

I am here...

Waiting...

Arms wide open...

Holding out hope...

But I cannot embrace, “Maybe or I don't know...”

So I must surrender to what is...

And what I know now

That until you are ready to receive anything I have to give...

I will continue to hide you within the lines of my poetry.

© 2018

"More Than Waiting"

Through time...

The moments had built between us

Beyond what they appeared to the eye

As well as the heart...

The once steady and firm grip trembled...

My footing was no longer stable

Holding out hope lingered for far too long

Choices and decisions had to be made

The heart can only break for so long

With life and luck

Time moved forward

I grew passed the moments that once held me still

I had to learn to be more than “Waiting for you to be ready”

And wanting you to care as much as I did

With prayers unanswered

And questions lingering

The mind did the only thing that it could do with that much uncertainty...

Let go...

© 2018

"Limited Love"

Life is this

Here and now

And love is worth fighting for

But not if you are the only one fighting for it

Which brings us to this question you ask of me

That after all the years...

The moments spent

Embraced deep

That you are now ready to love

To take a chance

With a hand extended and offered

You are willing to see what may come from venturing beyond the definition of friendship

But uncertainty holds me frozen...

For I know in the eyes of reality

You and I are not seen together

So forgive my lack of commitment

Towards your claim to be ready to love this time now

History reads otherwise...

Its unfair for you to tease me with the possibility of my one true

Then not follow through

Yet here you stand...

Promising everything...

Then nothing...

Which asks too much of me

I guess we both have different ideas of what being together means

Don't love me with your list of limitations

Then call it unconditional

My doubt screams

Hesitation baits my breath

Caution surrounds my heart

I fear I am not brave enough to except the dare

For the challenge of getting over you the first time took me years

It nearly changed the person I have come to be

Making this one of the worst things you have ever done to me...

To give me hope...

All over again...

© 2018