Mourning...
The silence of goodbye...
Now reminds us just how quickly all things in life can change...
Even when we can see the approaching end in the distance...
It still becomes all that different and real once you are actually living it
No one ever really tells you that this is part of it...
That loving so deeply means that one day you will grieve just as deeply
Tears will flow steady or in random times of nothing...
It becomes a way for our eyes to speak out when our mouths can't even begin to explain just how broken our hearts are
We are now abandon to an ocean of awfulness where definitions fail at understanding the loss...
The difference is felt in everything...
We now grieve for all the moments...
The quiet ones of the past and the loud ones of celebrations of milestones that will now never be met
We now realize it will be felt every single time when they should have been part of it, but aren't...
This is what it is like living after death...
No one warns you that it will almost break you...
Or how in the oddest of ways, it reminds you of one amazing thing...
That the same heart that is capable of holding such immeasurable joy, will now hold unbearable sorrow
It's so easy to resent it, or try to push it away...
To long for a different life untouched by devastation like this
But given the choice, would you undo it all?
Would you erase love to escape pain?
The answer is probably no...
Because grief is not just pain...
It's the proof that something beautiful once existed
That we were given something worth missing so much
We would never trade the love had to get out of grief
And that we would never erase all the happiness just to avoid the unspeakable heartache
Because we will now endure a lifetime of missing them for having the privilege to have loved them
Which lights the candle of remembrance within the heaviness of darkness, forever burning bright...
As this being we love returns to where ever we were before we were here
Leaving all behind...
Back to the earth and sky.
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