"Limited Love"

Life is this

Here and now

And love is worth fighting for

But not if you are the only one fighting for it

Which brings us to this question you ask of me

That after all the years...

The moments spent

Embraced deep

That you are now ready to love

To take a chance

With a hand extended and offered

You are willing to see what may come from venturing beyond the definition of friendship

But uncertainty holds me frozen...

For I know in the eyes of reality

You and I are not seen together

So forgive my lack of commitment

Towards your claim to be ready to love this time now

History reads otherwise...

Its unfair for you to tease me with the possibility of my one true

Then not follow through

Yet here you stand...

Promising everything...

Then nothing...

Which asks too much of me

I guess we both have different ideas of what being together means

Don't love me with your list of limitations

Then call it unconditional

My doubt screams

Hesitation baits my breath

Caution surrounds my heart

I fear I am not brave enough to except the dare

For the challenge of getting over you the first time took me years

It nearly changed the person I have come to be

Making this one of the worst things you have ever done to me...

To give me hope...

All over again...

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