"Five Years"

Its been five years and counting...

Every day adds up when looking back to that day

The circle has finally come to an end

Everything has stopped spinning and repeating itself

Peace has been found from broken pieces long ago

In these long lost moments of reflection

I find myself from time to time

Assuring myself that things are still better off now

There is no more second guessing or torment

I have long since passed the turning point or proverbial fork in the road

Digging up the past only gets you dirty

Or it buries you with the best forgotten

Because of you, my life changed

I came to know darkness rather well

Abandonment was a large hole to fill

For a long time my ears would peak to the sounds of receding footsteps

To the lyric of a song

Everything seemed to have a flash of memory attached to it

From where I was...

To who I am now...

The miles of growth both internal and external burst out with the sunlight

Pushing all of you so far back, that it is now beyond me

Reminding me that life is always speaking to us

Are you listening?

© 2011

"Compassion and Lies"

Did you hear me?

Did anything I say mean anything to you?

I want you to take responsibility for your own space

I refuse to try and make you feel better for hurting me

I wish for just one single moment you could be in my shoes

Then you would know that the choices that you have made hurt me

A mistake is one thing...

But lacking compassion is unforgivable

And that is why people get caught in lies

They forget the lines in their own made up story that they told themselves would work.

© 2011

"All Over Again"

Please...

Be not those emotions that tempt me so

Like a fisherman’s line cast

I fight the current forever pulling

The trap...

The line...

The lure...

Everything is set for the perfect fall

Binding my emotions from my heart

I try my best to hold strong

Fighting against the invigorating rush

I will keep true to my convictions

If I keep steadfast to my sight

I will not lose myself within another being once again

Because I no longer believe that I have the strength to survive another broken love

All over again...

© 2011

"Following Angels"

Head hung low in mourning

The wave of deep sadness washes over you

Slow at first...

Then to a steady surging stream of emotions flow

The realization builds with every beat of the heart

That devastation is no longer a word

It now has taken up residence within you

And has borrowed your name

Through whispered pieces of broken prayer

You filter through memories...

For all the moments lost

And the ones that will never be made

Wishing time could reverse

You would go back

And do so much more...

But in the searching of the time line of life

Unknown to you, a certainty holds you

Faith keeps you moving

And hope holds you

Just because the one you loved is now out of sight

Does not mean they can be or will ever be erased from your mind

Because they are with you

Watching all of us from the heavens

Those whom we love and lost...

Are no longer where they were before in our lives

Because they are now wherever we are

Carried within our being

Until we all meet again in that divine place above

When angles lead us in.

© 2011

"Not For Sale"

Too many moments have passed since love walked away from you

Turning its back upon all of the promises made

Cracking your heart

And almost shattering your being

The hardest thing in life is to love someone and let them love you back

Because sometimes we put up walls around us not to keep other people out

But to see who cares enough for us to climb them

In your case...

The ladder used to scale those walls were lies

Making all that came before and after lost to the deception

Your heart has been broken by the inability of another heart to open to you

Reminding you that suffering does not discriminate

We can only rise above...

By being the guardians of our own humanity

Keeping a simple truth true

That the value of love is priceless

That is why it cannot be bought.

© 2011

"Morning Scene"

The call of the loon sounds out

Bathed within the sound of the lapping ripples that wiggle across the lake

I find myself at peace

As the evening comes to pass

All is calm this early morn

Simple thoughts stream through my mind

As the thin layer of misty gray fog breaks

Like a curtain or veil being drawn back

To part the scene for my eyes to behold

Its natures naturally born guru at its best

Bringing daylight to the darkness

With every moment there is a memory

And long lost reflections of the past

Branded true with its very own range of emotions

Teaching me a new way to dream while awake.

© 2011

"Forever In A Day"

With my eyes wide open

They gaze upon natures beautiful glory

A gift given within the day

Brought forth with the unwrapping of the morning sun

Dawn breaks the seal

Cresting the mind to whipped peaks of freshness

The realization is made absolute

You awaken curiosity

It can't be taught

Oar in hand...

The canoe glides, slicing through the clear crisp water

Birds fly over head

Taking flight are my thoughts

Long lost...

Reflections glimmer upon the surface of the lake

Rain drops fall gently

I listen to the sweet melody

Its like tender piano music

My eyes fall shut as my mind drifts into random places

Bringing simple thoughts clear

To always just be me

Dare to be

And always dream

Love fiercely

And never giving any of it back

Here in this moment of reflection

I feel oddly safe

And as complete as a person can be

As if I am being swept up in the tender warmth of a mothers embrace

Reminding me that even though its me who holds the pen when I write

Its really everything around me that fuels the ink within my pen

Without all of this-life’s moments-I would merely be

But because I allow myself to be open to that divine connection within

I am...

Here...

This moment...

Forever in a day.

© 2011