"Last Tear Drop"

Lost in the the long shadows

Moments divide

Emotions pull relentlessly upon your thoughts

And feelings sweep through your body like wild fire

Confusion rains as you trace the twin trails of tears down your cheeks with your fingertips

The darkness leeches in...

But you some how remain strong enough to keep it at bay

Tired from the fight...

Beaten down till you are black, blue, numb, and raw

You still have a whisper left within your voice to say...

You will not submit

You are through with playing any sort of game in or around life

Especially when you are being forced to compete within the confines of some one else's rules

Sometimes you just have to simply close your eyes and trust in yourself

And leap

Brave enough to trust in your instincts you are being the true definition of blind faith

You are finding peace from broken pieces

Because a change has to be made

A shred of some unknown happiness prevails through

A gift from the future for the future

In the face of the impossible you are beating the odds

By becoming inspired, instead of defeated

The path is chosen by your hand and directly through the disaster, lies salvation

Not a second longer can you lie to those around you, or to the being inside you

This choice that you make will turn the next page of your life

By breathing through those frozen moments

Fighting against the odds

Take one more step forward and let the last tear drop fall

I believe in you

And I know you believe in you

Be all that you can be here and now

Because existence cannot be grasped, unless you actually live.

© 2011

"Own Your Choice"

As the pieces of that are let of us fall

I have to ask you...

Did you hear anything that I had to say?

And did it mean anything to you?

I had come halfway...

And I was waiting for you to meet me here

But now, as the receding footsteps fall

I watch the last sight of your footsteps fade from my eyes

Life has momentarily come to a pause...

Lost deep in reflection...

Memories cascade over the seconds

Every single part of my realization is made

By breaking the connection

I release the bond

I will not apologize for the mistakes you made

Claim what is yours and own it

Because I am not the worthless that you made me feel

We are all old enough to know better

So why don't you?

Because when you take it upon yourself to make choices on behalf of another person

You better be fully prepared to also take absolute responsibility for doing so

Whatever the out come may be

Good or bad...

Take responsibility for your own space

Because its your lie

Making it your bed

Which is your choice.

© 2011

"Expired Chance"

I didn't ask you to be with me for no apparent reason

I am who I am...

Fear will not drive my choices

I will not apologize for not fitting within the confines of “normal”

My dreams will be lived

Not just merely something to hope for, some place way off in the distance

I want to tell you with all of my life that I want to love you

But, you will not let yourself get past all of the other stuff holding you back from my extended hand

The choice, the chance, is yours for the taking

Step up...

Where is the craving, the want, desire, or basic need?

I will not let my life be one simple accident after the next

I have a purpose that is uniquely my own

My desperate wish once was to share it with you

But all hope is now gone...

Faded with the moments in time

I am not the worthless that you try to make me feel

And the limitations that you wish to inflict upon me

Will only cage me in...

Because every opportunity has a shelf life

And yours just expired...

© 2011

Finding your way home

“Finding your true self is never a waste of time.”

Stop. Simply think for a moment about how you see yourself. What opinions do you have of yourself? Have you ever thought about who you are? What you stand for? No, I’m not talking about your roles or social identities. You can be a friend, brother/sister, employee, boyfriend/girlfriend, husband/wife, partner, father/mother, son/daughter, all at the same time, but these are just an aspect of you. They don’t represent who you fundamentally are inside. Your inner self is who you really are on the inside.

To know your inner self is to know your purpose, your values, your visions, your motivations, your goals and your beliefs. Not as what you have been told by others, but what you have discovered for yourself. Knowing your inner self requires a high level of introspection and self-awareness. If you have clarity to at least half of what is listed above, you probably hold quite a high level of self-awareness. At the same time, the process of discovery never ends – it’s a life-long journey. But its still worth the the effort and journey. In any case, the journey becomes just as important as the destination.

So many people that surround us in our daily lives are lost. Lost amongst the hectic chaos of this continuously spinning world. They abandon themselves to the daily shuffle while losing themselves within. The question of self image will plague most of us for most of our lives. We all must do our best to dig past those images that others have of us, and of what we have of ourselves. The precious moments of life that are given to us can be so fleeting. Release all bondage and chains put upon yourself and search through the multiple layers of your being find out what makes up you. Forget about all of the expectations forced upon you. Do your best to do it, and say it right the first time. Because there are rare moments in life that you get to do things over. Start with the some simple things, because there is no need to go to any extremes. Make the choice for you, set a realistic goal, and do your best to achieve it. Plant new hopes and dreams and work with yourself to make them real. Be brave and try something new by stepping outside the protective box we all keep ourselves in. Whether its as simple as trying a new food or drink. Even if its dancing around while no one is around. Express yourself any way that you can within the limits you feel comfortable with.

Simply do your best, and try. Make every day worth while. Find the key and set yourself free, because there is no better feeling than finding your way home.

© 2011

"First Time Intensity"

Hand upon my heart

I feel it skip a beat

Flushed to my core with warm emotions

I feel the invigorating rush

Everything that is you consumes me complete

The smell of your skin lingers upon my fingers tips

Your the beacon of light that my eyes see in the dark of night

Your arms are a place I want to call home

With you, who needs dreams with a reality like this

I over indulge myself in all the moments

I wrap myself up in the sweetness

To the point that I can almost taste it

As one day leads in to the next

My heart hears yours calling to mine

As we hold one another for the first time

All the way through the night until we see the first shred of sunlight.

© 2011

"Wicked Ghost of Silence..."

Silent screams follow weeping tears

Disbelief shades the sunshine

Tolerance is now blind

And patience has failed

The beginning of a concrete foundation has crumbled

The fresh air is choked by the the dust of the sudden destruction

Shadows now lurk in the past choices made

All silently under the veil of deceptive lies

Heart strings plucked now snap raw

The edges of the soul fray

And a bitterness can be tasted upon the lips

The budding romance wilts faster than the flowers given

Passion ceases in an instant, along with any sort of caring contained within

Tenderness is now banned

Scorned from the sight of the heart

Each action further taken is only seen as cruel

The seed of devastation has been planted

It now grows wild within the core of the being

Tangled and thick like any part of the deep jungle

Blinding sanity

It plays with broken emotions

Constricting the warmth

Tampering with reality filled with illusions that turn out to be now true

A fierce anger rages more wild than any sort of animal ever known

It tears through all boundaries and lines drawn in the sand

All because silence was kept with the truth

Proving that all is not fair in love and war

Especially when someone is playing with a stacked deck of cards

Hollowed out like a gutted fish

Life pauses...

Tainting the golden moments as they are erased from recent history

The final residue echoes through the burnt out passion

In its wake, land mines trail behind for the heavy heart to find

Broken within, the sudden sadness sweeps through faster than time

Ripping apart the former goodness into tattered shreds

Deafening the still silence...

© 2011