"Bleed Me Still"

We lie because we know the truth may hurt...

Sometimes the reason is for feelings saved

Its for the betterment of the state of mind...

Or in so many other cases...

The truth is twisted...

Provoking you to make choices that do not serve their interest

And this is where I am found

Another arrow shot to the senses

Fingers have begun to loose count

Each continue to bleed me still...

My ears can taste the bitterness of shaded words

Abandonment rips through tenderness

Dark shadows linger on this once bright path forward...

Reasons are not known as to why

My only guess is that courage is not a conviction embraced

My only certainty...

I am not the sum of your poor choices made

Nor will I lay claim to the heaviness

And carry the weight of your wrong actions taken

Your direct choices of exclusion are made...

And I am suppose to be the bigger person

To rise above the disappointment given

To offer solace and words of wisdom

When I am the one being walked over

Hurt to the core of the being of existence

From someone who is suppose to have love and care for my well being

There is no offering of understanding

Compassion is used to hide betrayal

Silence is the better...

Since empty gestures are laid at my feet like rose petals

All the while it remains the eggs shells I walk

Loosing my balance upon...

My hands were once willing to figure out this equation

But I will not hold onto your fragile heart

As you cover me up from the world...

I've lived beyond your limitations

And I cannot afford to feel bad for out growing you

When you chose to not grow with me...

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