Monday, 29 April 2019

"Laid To Rest"



From vibrant colours of life
The eyes did not see the gray...
The beginning stages of darkness creeping in
Senses began to wonder
Losing their track
Footsteps faltered
Questions began
Building by the seconds passed
Time filled up with empty spaces
Leaving holes within conviction
Hours began to run cold
Temptation was revealed to be an illusion
Promise of hope fled
Mistrust took root within the shadows of doubt
The beginning of the end came swiftly
Emotions tangled together
Lines were drawn without cause of recognition
Pointed fingers of blame shot like arrows
Before the thoughts were formed
I found myself lost
Locked away inside my mind
Conversations looped
Misleading intentions
Boundaries were ignored
You crossed that divide
Folding my life into two
Abandoning me on a path to a place I could not follow
Making the life within my heart question existence
All the edges of my being rounded off smooth
Bitterness bit in
Anger grasped a hold of my baited breath
Limiting the compassion given
To the point of no return I was pushed
Questioning everything...
To that heart stopping moment of realization made
That I loved you... until I hated you...
Making my only choice in belief
That you are now better off as a memory...



© 2019

Monday, 22 April 2019

"The End Of Forever"



Scared is the breath brave enough to live
Emptiness fills my lungs
The embrace of doubt constricts me
A line drawn...
Pure darkness
Shades darker than dark
This is the sign
Warning those approaching
Beware of the consequences of trespassing against me
Silence fills the air
Deafening negative vibes echo through the space of disconnect
Bitterness is bread from anger
Magnified by conditional love
Sharp words pierce the thin veil of what use-to-be
Revealing all that has come to pass
Time stands still
The last sweet notes of this beautiful love song are played
Regret would be found if I chose to continue to listen to this
I offer no apology for surviving
Forgiveness to myself eases the former excuses given
I remove myself from that man
The mistakes of the past are behind me now
Not in front of me
And this path I take
I've learned the lesson of you
Just as I was about to crucify myself upon the embrace of your love.


© 2019

Monday, 15 April 2019

"Straight Ahead"



Like the night...
Shadows have moved over the light
Doubt casts shades of gray
To all places colour once shone bright
Emotions weigh
Tension pulls...
The minds eye calls out for an anchor
To be back to its safe harbor it once called home
Swaying with the waves
The heart drifts alone
The horizon line...
Like a conclusion, seems infinite
Close enough...
Yet so far out of reach
Life is at the mercy of the changing tide
For the realization comes quietly
Almost silent at first...
That the senses don't pay any bother
Now it builds...
Growing...
A presence known
From an embrace broken
A sign...
A beacon calling...
Burning red...
Danger...
Straight ahead.


© 2019

Monday, 8 April 2019

"Grow As We Go"



We as people...
Are simply different pages from the same story...
Called life...
Moments gather
Memories made
Experiences form our being
With each step upon the path we take
We grow and learn as we go
The human range of emotion is endless
And some realizations have to be made
That some people in our life are not meant to walk with us
Especially when we need conviction...
And they have trouble believing...
I will not be killed with pleasant kindness
Hollowed darkness to cover up the lies
I leave the abandonment here
I am beyond the waiting...
I am worth more than pretending
The choice is mine to choose
Heads or tails
Win or loose
I refuse to sift through the ashes of nothing...
This will not define my next action
Motivation is the root found
Forgiveness may be given
But no excuse can remove the behavior done
Trust again is denied
I let go...
To allow myself to move on with my life
It is within my power to do that
We all can create change
Its up to us...
Because if not, who?
And if not now, when?


© 2019

Monday, 1 April 2019

"Before All This"



Once upon a time...
There was a bright place inside my heart for you
Until that fateful day when you turned out the light...
Throughout my being dividing lines were drawn
At war was my soul
Between what is now...
And all that use-to-be
Thoughts twisted together
Emotions swayed like a pendulum
Heart and mind broke
Moments lost their strength
My eyes remained clouded by tears
Hidden beneath the rain was the confusion
Lies were sorted with truth
Some had meaning...
Others reflected words beyond imagination
Carrying myself in my own embrace
Through what seemed like an endless state of being haunted
My world inside a world stopped moving
Until all the yesterday's
Turned into today...
And another tomorrow came
Across the border line I walked
Outliving those effects of you had upon me
Learned is the soul
Survival forward is the path I walk
My heart beat for life drowns out any whisper or echo that tries to remain
All that was has faded with the darkness
This forward motion now blossoms vibrantly
Emerging with the warmth of the sun
This now...
A new day...
And then another....



© 2019