"Moments Of Meaning"

I pleaded...

Please do not go where I cannot follow...

Each feeling and emotion became a fight

Life moments a sacrifice...

Senses struggled with thoughts and memories

All actions came with hidden meanings and messages

A darkness within grew

Spreading outward it crept

Shadows were cast as you came to fear my light

My heart made you a priority

All the while your care for me

Did not exist within the options you created

Love was suppose to be the safety net to catch you as you fell

Little did I know...

Your mind was committed to only you

The heaviness built silently

You stood upon my shoulders breaking my will

Using me as stepping stones to the place you wanted to be

All I ever did was try...

All you ever did was undermine my efforts made...

Tangled are thoughts of connection

Intertwined with life and meaning

I use to be someone else

Before all this...

You changed me...

Some parts have become soft

Others hardened

A lesson learned

In betrayal and trust

Eyes wide open now

A promise made to myself

And forgiveness to my being to be at peace

To never apologize for doing ones best with what has been given...

And for surviving...

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