"Within The Words"

It begins all upon a thought

A whirlwind of action

Like a thunderstorm breaking

Or a hurricane breaching the shore line

The dark clouds part

The sun shines bright

Darkness and light mix together

All at its peak

The surge...

You wrestle it down and the words begin to flow

Quick and swift

Smooth and hard

Beaten, raw, and bleeding

Softly, elegantly they assemble themselves in order

Like building a rose petal

Or constructing a great tapestry of your being

The soul broken open

Existing purely within the moment

Words travel from head to hand at lightening speed

Words harsh

Of scorn...

Or a sweet love

And tenderness...

Some how these movements make sense of it all

From beginning, middle, to end

You know that these words are your own

And you are better off for writing them

For experience learned

To live the truth within

Seeking the wisdom they embrace

And to own every ounce of them.

© 2019

"The Creation of Abandonment"

How do you loose something that you wish would never return?

You learn...

You experience all its existence in raw form

Till moments pause...

And the roar of the battle falls silent

Embracing myself

I carry my being here

I cry freely...

Your presence is now a burden gone

The war within surrenders

Pace finds its way back within

My feet find the ground again

From moments where emotions turned dark

The connection and the vibe changed

Conversation died...

Tired was the effort of my being

To always be the keeper of everything

Forgiveness is declined

For you had trespassed so fa beyond my limitations

That all reason of explanation has fled

Cruel was the torment inflicted

Love twisted beyond recognition

You came to fear my light

While continuing to embrace your darkness within

Until compassion could not win

The answers come now to the first question asked

Not even I knew the freedom felt or gained

By the act of surrendering all that was to yesterday...

With complete peace of abandonment.

© 2019

"Moments Of Meaning"

I pleaded...

Please do not go where I cannot follow...

Each feeling and emotion became a fight

Life moments a sacrifice...

Senses struggled with thoughts and memories

All actions came with hidden meanings and messages

A darkness within grew

Spreading outward it crept

Shadows were cast as you came to fear my light

My heart made you a priority

All the while your care for me

Did not exist within the options you created

Love was suppose to be the safety net to catch you as you fell

Little did I know...

Your mind was committed to only you

The heaviness built silently

You stood upon my shoulders breaking my will

Using me as stepping stones to the place you wanted to be

All I ever did was try...

All you ever did was undermine my efforts made...

Tangled are thoughts of connection

Intertwined with life and meaning

I use to be someone else

Before all this...

You changed me...

Some parts have become soft

Others hardened

A lesson learned

In betrayal and trust

Eyes wide open now

A promise made to myself

And forgiveness to my being to be at peace

To never apologize for doing ones best with what has been given...

And for surviving...

© 2019

"Reflection In Light"

It can be astounding just how many shadows can be cast by one being

Sometimes when all that you are doing is trying to survive

It becomes all to common to loose sight of yourself

Thoughts build

Meanings change with emotions and feelings

No matter what all the other voices say- or the one in your head

You are enough...

You are worth the effort and fight

Feel the love when caring faces speak your name

Never regret the things that made you smile

These moments lived define us

The best gift you can give yourself is forgiveness

Hold tight

Be the reason to believe

You can't fight if you don't try

Take one step

From where you are now

To the place you want to be

And when strength fades

Sometimes we must lean on those who care

Together we can shine bright the light...

Leading us through the darkness.

© 2019